i'll be in taiwan for 3 and a half weeks.

i thought since i won't be around for the new year, i might just blog. (:
i'll be leaving tmr to taiwan.

this whole year, it has been a good and fruitful year. in terms of growth, lifestyle, friendship, relationships, things has just been getting better and better.

for the first half year, i have been feeling pretty dry, not being able to grow much. even relationships with other people had been really trying, and tiring.
i have been disappointed by people whom are supposedly the closer ones to me time and time again. it made me questioned myself silently in my heart. I still care somehow bout the way she or he reacts when i pass by them every week. but the other side of me has decided to stray away. because it isn't worth it.

and later on, after months of praying about it, and still not being able to really get over it, there was a change. I believed God heard my prayers. He heard my struggles. time and time again, i stray into the lane of bitterness and hatred. but time and time again, i denied myself and surrendered it all to God. And i am still trying to make that conscious effort.

then came the time when i saw a breakthrough in my life at kuantan camp. It has been a turning point for me. to face reality, to face the things that i have been hiding from. Transformation just came the moment i opened my heart to it. and once more, God's presence has been so overwhelming in my life.

and then the spliting of cell came about. no more shalom. and i don't know why, i'm very glad bout it now. as i reflect. I knew i wasn't growing anymore. things were different. and when i stepped into living faith cell, i know God was doing His changes in many of the Shalom members.
i didn't dare to say out loud, that i was really glad to change cell, but now it's different.
I enjoy myself throughly. i see the way cell works. and it's really different. of course, no comparison. But i sincerely thank God for helping me to fit in and grow in LFC.

now, towards the end of the year, kor just got married. and we'll be going to taiwan tmr already. i really am glad for kor and er-sao. (:
i pray that they will really be blessed, they will come to know Christ (:

i thank God for year 2008, it has been a great and fruitful year. thank God for all the trials that i've overcome through Christ, thank God for His unfailing love, His never ending grace and mercy upon me. (: