i got photos from the past few days (:

but oh well, blogger is so lag now. it doesn't allow me to upload pictures. tmr i guess. im too lazy to wait.

came back from GDOP - Global day of prayer at the national stadium.
I'm really glad that i went. although i didnt want to go. and my prayer got answered. recently, i was just thinking bout some stuffs. what triggered these thoughts were from esther. something like, it is amazing how God answers our smallest prayer.

yes. God really answers our smallest prayer. from our view, to him, it seems like a prayer that is so small, so stupid. but God still makes the effort to answer them.
for example, last friday, i was carrying a lot of thing on hand, and i know getting down the bus will be a problem if someone sits beside me. so i told God, "keep this seat empty till i get down" although a woman sat beside me, she got down the stop before i was alighting. and amen to that!

and today i prayed that i'll see a breakthrough in my "don't-dare-to-pray-out-loud" prayer life. and amen! i did it. i knew God was speaking to me on the way to the stadium. the voice in me kept repeatedly sounding. the voice said, "you can do things that you think you can't but in actual fact you can. its not about courage, not about being bold, but its about trusting yourself, and believing God, relying on your holy spirit in you." AMEN!

there are a lot of wonderful works, God has done for me. God has blessed me. i wish one day, i'll be able to tell everyone my story. and let it be a living testimony. and many will accept Christ because of the story i've to tell (:

recently, i've been praying for a miracle. not smth i would tell you bout. unless that miracle comes or appear, then i might share. but right now, i desperately need that miracle in my life.



<------------you don't have to read this, this my prayer to God. ---------------------->



God, let me filled once more of your love. let all these dryness be gone. let me have a breakthrough in my spiritual walk with you, in my prayer life with you Lord. Lord, show me that miracle that i've been yearning and desire for. Lord as i pray, i'll wait patiently for your answer. Lord, my life may be topsy turvy. but let me continue to trust in you, to rely on you. Lord, guide me, leadth me. fill me with love, care and concern. Let me learn to be sensitive in the Spirit within me. that i may learn to hear your voice even clearer. that i may walk the right road. let me not live by the standards set by man. let me learn to live to your standards. Father, i pray that you'll not let me get bullied wherever i go. Grant me a heart of compassion, a heart of love, that i may go out and share Christ with who you want me to share. help me reach out to those who need a helping hand. Lord, help me set a good example at home, in school and in my workplace. Lord, let me be your tool to bring my family to salvation. Father, this is my prayer, my prayer from my heart Lord. I want to surrender myself, my life into your hands once more, let me experience revival and renewal in my life from today onwards. Father i thankyou once more for the good things you've done for me. In Jesus name i pray AMEN.


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Yep. after GDOP today, lots of thoughts been running through my mind. uncertainty. uselessness that i've experienced through the week. being a burden and trouble. and many other things. things that i really wish i could sit down and cry over. things that i wish cld just disappear from my life. but then again, i ask myself, i ask God, what is the purpose you've set for me?

i may be tired, may be dry. but i know God is our everlasting God. and that i can do everything through Him who gives me strength.
so press on (: thats what i've been hearing for so many days now.
cheers


this is a long post. but a meaningful one to me (:
loves.

welcome esther into my life.
man. the title sounded so corny. haha.
Esther was saying, "i was wondering last night, how i've just stepped into your life" haha i was grinning (:
because. its good to have someone like Esther in my life (:
haha. it was really funny. cause she started working at gelare, we went badminton & jogging too. (esther is bad at badminton..... hahaha) ok fine. me too. ):

then we spent lots of time together talking, having fun. i really thank God. i've been in Shalom for around 11 months already. and only after so long, then i managed to get to know esther more. and its really amazing, how God plans his timing. really.

haha. and so, ytd ina, esther and i played badminton. and we sorta played badly. haha. then esther said, "choose another sport next time" lol, anyway, we went to jog around. ok i jogged 2 rounds only. -.- hahhaa. mannn. i need to lose calories (:
then we went to gelare early. i was supposed to start work at 6pm, but they told me 7pm. anyway, bee ean made esther and i go around giving out $5 discount vouchers. it was really interesting. but anyway, that's called free labour !

lol. and i had fun at work, apart from the headache that was killing me. but i found out the headache was because of lack of food! i ate only one apple pie for dinner. and then later on, i asked andy to go buy me a double cheeseburger. after eating it, my headache vanished. (:
happy.

yeppp. so thats my day (:

hoho!
my brother's desktop pc is irritating me. the powerpoint is overloaded with plugs. it gets very irritating and there's this sound that keeps coming out from the plug area. its like sssssssssssssssss. lol. anyway, then smth seem to keep getting d/c from the pc. and theres the "deng deng" sound. so its really irritating. BLEAH.

anyway. im gonna play 2 hours of badminton later! and i want to go jogging as well. depending on Esther, whether she can make it and whether she has taken her typhoid as well. hmm. i went out with jeffrey yesterday, yes like finally. and amazingly. we went parkway. i knew ina was there already. haha. hey. its not on purpose i want to go meet ina can. -.- lol.
anyway, gave him the smiley face. (: as cute as him. hoho.

i went giant i saw this polar bear. i find it really cute. and i think i'll buy it one of this day. polar bears are cuttttteeeeee.
SEEEEE, my child-like character is reverting back. how annoying? bleahhh.


hmmm. june is nearing. and i can say that i dislike june because jeffrey will be so busy! that is not fair. oh God, pleaseeeeeeee send people to accompany me during june! amen. hahaha. -.-
and.... TERMTEST! bleah. 4th, 5th & 7th JUNE. i better study very very hard (: and my group's mp seem to be proceeding well on track (: loves !


i met hannah already! she thought jasmine was me?!?!?! RAWR. like no way? haha. and i plan to give her one smiley face too. and ina's eeyore. and then perline's smiley face. but then, i got nth to give yemin le?! hahaha. oops.

ok. i blogged really long. ina are you happy? hahaa.
btw, i love jeffrey (:


BYEEEEE

going to school in 7 mins.
so dumb.

i'm kinda bored. i know there's work to be done. but somehow i don't have the motivation. i worked best at night. but because of that, i've not enough sleep. and i've a few pimples on my face already. ARGH. so retardedly sad.

bleah. im going to work later. packed food to work! wheee. this is to save money. haha.
thurs im meeting annete&emily. but causeway point? that's pretty farrrr.
arghs.

ok. im going off now. off to school. boring ):

loves

when all things seem difficult, somehow you know in your heart that of course you'll be able to overcome them. that's the works of the holy spirit in me.

I've been thrown in a world of worries and troubles eversince year 3.1 started. it has been really tough from week 0 till now. i've been appointed as a leader for my MP, marketing, ecsa & wsad. that is 4 modules. It is really hard to lead one group whats more 4. but i know God is working in my life.

Today i completed some work. and im actually feeling glad. im also glad i had a nice conversation with Esther. nice as in, a completely fun conversation. haha. im beginning to really like Esther. haha. thank God (:

okay. so i haven't blogged for very long. really sorry. i've been busy. skipping lessons to do projects. how dumb right? but oh well. i told myself, told God, i'll not skip anymore lessons from monday which is now onwards. im gonna strive and do my best. its not too late yet! (:
yeppp.

pay day is coming real soon. but its not sufficient. but i believe God will provide.
haha. im planning smth in secret. so i shall not tell you what it is.
anyway. its really late.
shen rae and esther said you can't sleep after 2am, you'll grow fat! hahaa
so byebye! and mind you its not even 1am yet. but im exhausted. been sitting here for 2 and a half hours doing nth but paperwork. lol

loves.

i think i look extremely funny and weird in this picture. but the thing is look at the hair. not the face. xD
i kind of love this picture. kope it from ina's blog. haha. we went out for sushi. my treat (: and she shared stuff with me that i would never have known.
and i know Ina is really God-sent.

i've never knew the meaning of friendship, true, everlasting friendship, till i know ina, and came BBTC. i never knew actually she was given a choice. and she chose to stay by me even though she could leave. so thankyou my dearest friend. (:

yeah. after reading her blog, i sort of wanted to tear. so touched.
haha.

anyway i had a romantic date just now. haha.
i really love just sitting down with you like just now. haha. i love you. and thanks for the wonderful night (:
although we don't get to have dates every now and then. but every single date is precious.
i can remember all our dates you know.

hmm. first date at cathay&funan IT mall, 2nd date still at cathay(how many times we went cathay ?!) my birthday; movie at cathay (AGAIN?!) then sushi. haha. then a few was at TM, walking around, or CARTEL. hmmm. and today. hahaa. i love you. and our one month one time date. i've never fell in love that deeply before. its all because of you, polar. (: and im blessed with the 2 most important person in my life. you and ina.

im having a very sweet night tonight. so im going to bed with smiles all over my face. hahha. (:

i haven't blogged for ages.
hmm. the whole week has been down and up i think. but i guess it all turn well, by God's grace.
i can only remember what happened from thursday onwards.

so thursday, i had my ecsa presentation. chinlock said my team did well. which i was happy to hear. but then i fell asleep during the rest of the presentation, because i was so tired. the previous night before i was working, and when i reached home, i was busily doing the powerpoint slides. and it seem that shaw wen has been telling chinlock bout me in class. sigh. that's really upsetting. yah. i know to chin lock, i may seem to have change from really guai to a worse kid. but hey, that's not true you know. im still the same. very eager to learn. hmm. nvm. action really speaks louder than words. bleah.

so that's my bad thursday. so fri, nth major happened. i stayed at home the whole afternoon. then went to work. hmm. work is always fun. but a lil tiring. but it gets better and better (:

saturday. choir practice. whoohoo! i finally went back for choir. i was really desperate for worship. that's why i smsed dorcas to ask whether i could sing for that one week. really glad. such a refreshment for me. i feel renewed in spirit once more. yeppp. then i went to cut my hair with dorcas. she brought me to this salon at bedok owned by 2 malay girls. i cut my hair short. so scroll down to see. yahh. i kind of miss my long hair so much. but sigh. no choice la hor. lol.

then sunday. the worse day ever. everything just didn't seem to go well. i really wanted to bang my head against the wall but considered it was not worth it. but God's presence was there with me through the most difficult time. i experienced some sort of peace, so i went to bed. yepp.

so that's my week. this few days im working on my prototype for MP. its tiring. but kinda fun. i always love website designing. so i guess im fine with it.
ponning school tmr. cus i got quite some work to be done. and i really want to complete them tmr before i go out dating . hahaha. loveloves.


ignore my face. just see the hair la. i think i look ridiculous. hahahaa. -.- so i really dislike my short hair. miss my wavy long hair. SIGH.



i miss jeffrey aw cher wah. (:



nights.

suddenly, i reached a dead-end. i don't know whether i have the energy to climb the wall infront, or should i turn back. but if im turning back, is there a turn-back for me still?


i've felt utterly lonely in my this few weeks of poly. the major project stress is killing me. im not able to communicate well with my members. and its leading me to destruction. and i'm seperated from my friends. i go to work every mon,wed, fri. and i can't find anyone to go out with. partly because im busy or they are busy.

tell me what i should do. many many times a day. i tell God, its okay. i can rely on you. and i'll rely on you. my friends may not be with me. but you are my best friend. so i'll trust in you.
but these are all head knowledge that i've never applied using my heart. at the end of the day, i feel worse than ever.

i know God will help me through. i really trust in Him that he'll see me through. but right now, i just need a lil concern that is hard to get, because i can't share what is inside me. i can't share because everyone's busy. my heart's breaking. really.

who can be here with me right now? i need someone.



on the happier note/not so happy note, i cut my hair short . so yah.
i think i should rest soon. im going crazy soon.
tmr there's choir. that's prolly the only thing im looking forward to.


nights

blog blog blog.
im so siannnn. i miss polar very very much. haha. 2 days w/o him you know. okay fine. only 2 days u wld say... but its so longggg. haha.
nvm.

tmr is supposed to be no-lesson day. but i got MP to do. i tell you. im so sian. and so reluctant to go school but oh well. i must go. hurr.
tmr im working till quite late. SIGH. but shud be fun i hope.

ok. im gonna go do highquest now. byeeee (:

loves

i had an amazing day of sleep today.
was really tired from work. school so i decided to pon school. and sleep in. and i tell you, it was really a rest i needed. if anyone of you need rest, i suggest you go sleep in for one whole day. and then when you start doing work. you can go a longer way. SERIOUS.

haha. so i woke up at 2pm. and deciding not to touch any school work, i ate lunch, and played sims 2. haha. i played till 5pm. then realized i was "kinda" running late. so i quickly went to bathe and headed for church. had dinner with polar, then had meeting.
i think camp games are really interesting. im even more amazed at how Darren can think bout all this kind of strategy games so easily. maybe its because he watch plenty of movies to get inspiration. but, still?! haha. im AMAZED!

i did my highquest today. praise the Lord. i finally did! haha. i said i MUST do all 5 days and yes i'll DO all 5 days ! (: and did my wsad tutorial. im tired now. :x
the day passed so fast. tmr's another long day. because i'll be in school and mp lab. doing projects. then i'll go work (: WHEES.

did i mentioned i spent my pay already? well it was only 37 bucks lah. -.- so its kinda expected. haha. but nvm. God do provide.
and HAPPY BIRTHDAY AARON! you're 21, and you went MIA.
hahaha. i guess he had a very romantic time alone (:




yes. i need to go out with ina one whole day soon. AS IN REALLY ONE WHOLE DAY, my dearest friend. hahaha. i miss you!
ok. i miss my boy too. we've always been so busy for a proper proper romantic date without feeling exhausted. but still i love you a lot. i wish all these busy-ness can end soon. and we can just be with each other for long periods. but its a long way to go. but being busy, keeps our mind away from each other. hahaha (: so maybe its good! i love you boy. rest well!


im feeling exhausted now. hahaha. gotta go (:
loves.

MY NEW LOVE.



hahaha. i've got a new love. BEARS.
i think polar bears are the cutest animals. cause they are like so huggable. and i wished i had a polar for a pet which is quite impossible.

after putting away the "childish" side of me for very long; telling myself i've grown up. i've finally revert back to my "childish" side thanks to darling. lol. because he gave me a teddy bear that's so cute and i can't stop holding it. ER. to explain how in love i am with the teddy...... I bring it out wherever i go, and when im doing my work, its beside me, when i sleep its with me. so that explains it all HUH?!

lol. today highquest was fruitful but i didn't do all 5 days. i am upset with myself actually. i shall make it a point to complete the next session for the next next highquest session! i MUST!
okay. i had a very challenging week. i shan't say anything here. but obviously close friends know. SIGH. school is dreadful ):
bleahhh. nvm. i'll graduate soon! i must score well this semester ! i believe i can.

anyway. i think i better do my work now. hahha.
LOVELOVES

it is really difficult to manage so many things at one time. sometimes i really wonder how i every managed. it always seem so difficult. but i always am able to come out of all these.

Im sure this semester i'll be able to do so again.
Although im really exhausted and can't find the strength to do things properly. sigh. may God bless me so much more.


okay. worries aside. its raining now. and im going school soon. NOOO. im not gonna bring my umbrella today. its killing me. yesterday was really a junk day. i carried so much stuff with me. until i had difficult having a free-hand to grab on the bar when the bus was moving. luckily, God gave me a seat after struggling for quite a while. Phew~
okay. so ina's mp is also facing problem. Hi^5 . welcome to the mp world of troubles.
work hard.
oh yah. i can't meet ina today anymore because of MP. im sacrificing too much for MP. and my grades.


i really think i've reached the extreme already. someone please save me , before i break down soon. loveloves
prayers for me please (:

Exhaustion.

after being sick for 2 days, rested for 2 days. im back to the hectic and chaotic school project days. bleah.

is there a day w/o mp to do? haha. this friday, there's like a project plan submission. and i didn't know till today. im such a failure at being a grp leader. sigh. better be more watchful in future (:
good news; benson wants to really work with my grp. bad news; he haven't send us the proposal.

tmr i gotta pull myself out of bed and do my work from 7am - 11am. then get ready for school. sigh. i can't continue now. because im tired. actually i wasted time watching tv just now. but hey! i needed some rest you know. i have been working hard in school from 9am - 6pm.
tell me bout it. haha.

yay. dinner with ina tmr! its been long since i see her.
and i have a long break away from polar. its a good thing though. hahaha. i don't tell you why. -.- so lame arh.
hopefully, sat can spend a day out with annette&emily. i need to spend time with them really soon. miss them (: hahaha.

okay. im gonna go sleep now. rest well. (:
loveloves.

sick but well again (:

i fell sick last night. -.- that's the consequences for not eating proper meals. but seriously how does gastric leads to high fever? i've no idea. but thank God, im alive and kicking again. haha.

i missed the YAM event. heard from others that it was fun. i really wanted to go. SIGH. but i was sick! an excuse to not go work. but i cldn't go for YAM too. i was so lethargic. cldn't get up. i slept from last night 11pm till 10am. then i went back to sleep all the way till 1pm. while waiting for polar to come fetch me at 2+, which he only came at 4+, i fell asleep too.

i was so tired. but im well. just completed my WSAD tutorial sheet. bleah. was really long. -.- but having a sense of satisfaction outta it.
tmr i've to chiong for my major project. i really have to trust God, and rely on him for a miracle that my group really need.
so friends, pray for me (:

ok. enough of blogging. i need to meet annette&emily soon. i need to have a whole day out with ina soon. and i think i want to see the GC people again. but saturday, im booked. sorry guys (:
loves.

FRI im working. come visit me if you can. (:
loveloves.