i haven't blogged for ages.
internet was down. and i've been very very busy.
when i say very very. it means really very very.
haha. -.-

from the whole monday - thursday, it has been major project week. really struggling to complete everyday's task. especially when you still have lessons. actually, nothing is going smoothly. but still, i want to trust in God. i want to trust Him, that He has great plans for my group and i. (:

and on thursday, i had some kind of conflict with my lab tutor. i am really apologethic i think. especially after talking to ina, i feel that im somehow in the wrong. my tone was really harsh. sigh. im gonna email him. and apologised.

yepp. went out for my one month one time date. haha. like finally you know? haha.
i was very excited at first. but it died out like really quickly. i've met him 5 days in a row. haha. i think im satisfied, to start my new week w/o him for another 5 days. haha. not that i do not want to meet him lah. i think i also need some personal space to go work things out - as in school stuff and quiet time. don't think too much lah.

my mom finally came for hokkien service. i've been trying to talk to her this few days. i really pray everything will work out fine. im seeing myself mature very slowly. i need to work harder (:

yea! tues im working (: morning - 6pm.
haha. anyone visiting me? most of you all will be at the fun in the sun event ): NOT FAIR ok.
bleah.
ok im gonna stop my blogging. and send shaw wen an email ):
nights.

i need some time with you. only you.

my title says, im in need of a romantic date. a one month one time date. with aw cher wah, jeffrey. you can't escape boy.

had a great sunday at his place with his family and hui sa came too (:

but, when i came home. i felt crushed by smth someone told me. and i really am lost for words. sigh. what else can i say. trust is that important in my world. but to them, i've lost it for i-don't-know what reasons. i guess, God is in control. He'll definitely make a way out for me.

today while having highquest, i was saying i feel happy that God owns me. its so true. i get so much security from God. that finally, someone owns me. someone whom i respect and love with all of my heart. i get distressed when people starts shunning me because i am a christian, because i am holy in their eyes, because i don't scold vulgarities like they do. because i don't go clubbing like they do.

in most people's eyes, im just a good girl that go homes early everyday. but although, such stuff happens, i'll not hide the fact, that i am a christian. i'll not hide the fact, that i read the bible, i'll not hide the fact that i spent quite an amount of time in church. i'll not hide. but i'll be proud of myself being a christian. that i've a wonderful God, that i want to share with you all.

i began to reflect on myself these 2 weeks because of the highquest. sometimes, im really not doing the right thing. for example, when the people were making fun of jialing, i joined in and laughed. i felt so guilty. this is definitely not the correct way. and i am definitely not showing christ character in me. and for this, i confess. and repent.

but guilt still stays in my heart. SIGH.

anyway, to the person who talked to me in msn just now, if i ever said such stuff to her, i'll apologise. but the thing is, im pretty sure i never told her. if i did say, im very sorry.

sigh. no more gatherings for me.
one is because of the issue that happened. second, im too busy with work and major project.
the busier i am, the better. but i cannot be too busy till i forget God.
like what Ps Dan foo says, "for those of you who can't sacrifice just 7 mins of your everyday life to read God's words.............." yea! faithful. (:

ok. gotta go.
loves.

im have been busy, busy and busy. but i thank God. because i finally have a day of rest. TODAY!

though i've a chalet later. (:
haha.

well, i began to see God's plan for me. for shifting my mp group. Although i was splitted up, but very quickly, i began to mix with my new group. talking to them has been an enjoyment.
and unexpectedly, we were on our way to external project.
although doing an external project, will mean more work, higher expectation, higher risks. i am still very willing to do so. and even my group are willing too.

i am very thankful for such a wonderful opportunity. But then again, i've to wait till Macdonald get back to me.

gotta go (:
loves.

IM TIRED

okay lah. im just physically tired. i haven't slept much yet. and im really struggling to wake up each morning.
got a briefing bout major project in school later on at 10am. then after that i'll come straight home and sleep till 5pm, then go to work (:

hoho. i need sleep !
i hate ns. ): okay, but i had to make it seem happier. but i really dread the thought of not being to see him for so long . okay not very long. BUT. ARGHS.
its a phase of r/s life that most couple have to go through. bleah. i hope the 2 years will pass very fast. thinking bout it 2 years means i'll be 21 (:

haha. okay. so im going youth camp w/o him.
bleah.


okay. im getting ready to go school.
i love my darling (:


loves

SUNDAY (: i love sundays.

haha. in one week, i love fridays and sundays.
oh yah. annette & emily, im working on friday. so paiseh. i forgot -.- SIGH. anyway you all can come gelare to look for me. i don't mind (: hahaha.

yepp. today i spent my day with jeffrey. church. then went to look at bicycles. okay. the truth is, i was really bored. hahhaa. but then i love him. (: so i follow lor. hahaha. but i tell you, i was really tired. i could fall asleep while walking. -.-
bleah.

had a good nap in the afternoon. then went out with his family for dinner. the usual sunday dinner (: hahaha.
then we walked home. i think walking with him is good. romantic walk. hahha.
bleah. tmr i need to go take my typhoid. and im working tmr (: i think it'll be good. though i won't know the 2 staff, katrina and john. make friends!

God bless me tmr.
hahaha. hope emily is feeling better. thanks for all the smsing. hahaha. (:
gotta go.
loves.

here to blog (:

my week has passed pretty fast. been rather eventful too!
wednesday i went out with a few of the gc members. i wouldn't say i enjoyed it very much. i don't know why. haha. -.-
thursday i spent the day at home, preparing for my powerpoint presentation. met my darling later at his place for dinner (: loves. had a great time playing monopoly. haha. i love (:
then friday, my PRESENTATION

oh man. i felt so angry ): not really angry lah. how would i describe ? hmmm. i really don't know. i was upset at hongwei, cutting into my time. i mean during exam, he already last min then return me my lecture notes, now presentation. i felt so irritated and stuff. LIKE WHY?! i wanted to score well. i doubt this module now actually pulls up my grade already. SIGH.

maybe there's a purpose for everything. alright. NOT maybe.
anyway let's drop this topic. i went out with yvonne, shuxin, yingjie, yiyuan, alex, edwin, matthew and anand. had a really lovely time laughing away at sakae sushi. eating so much. hahaha. non-stop man. then we went to walk around.

then i had to leave to meet annette&emily. had another great time of chatting . meeting them its like always the best event of the week. great friends (: i love.
haha. then i had to go home. because of the curfew my mom set for me already. no more late nights.
but.... next week i think i've a chalet! WHEEEE. and im happy bout it. hahaha. but then, there'll be so much drinking again -.-
I'll not drink too MUCH. haha.

but im looking forward already lah. today i met darling. spent the morning with him, then i went to ina's place. then went to church. im a regular customer at ina's place. always camp there. bathe there. watch tv there, sleep there. hahaha. its a no-wonder she want to collect rent from me. actually i kinda love nua-ing at ina's place. hahaha.
crazy me. -.-


OK! im gonna stop blogging. cause edwin is msn-ing me. -.-
BYE.

p.s i miss you my boy. don't ask me what if things don't work out in future. because i know it definitely will. (: i love you. love you. seven months already. (: and. its not that im childish that's why i don't think bout what MIGHT/MAY happen in future. its just that, im too afraid to go think about it. i don't want to lose you. I just simply love you too much. too too much. (:

look at the time now ! its 2.01 am. hmm. i've been staying up lately. doing projects.
i haven't had a good night rest for ages.
but then again, its good! when im busy, i think lesser.

haha. school's reopening really quickly. i haven't even catch up with my breath. and i've to start being busy over major project again.
oh well. my presentation is in 8 hours time. God bless me. (:
im really tired. i should go get some rest soon.

i miss jeffrey (:
after coming back from shanghai, seeing him makes me fall in love with him again. and right now, i can really say that i only love him and no one else (:
hahaha. he's my lion (:

okay. im really hungry now. but im ignoring that feeling. i've lost weight since i came back! WHOOHOO.
my spirits was lifted up today. i met jeffrey. (: haha. and i talked to edwin. and the things he said, just made me feel better. away with those feelings (:
YAY!


i love everyone.
goodnight (:

SHANGHAI PHOTOS! ok. obviously i can't upload all. there's more than 600 photos in my laptop. -.- well, im trying to upload everything into imagestation. its taking plenty of time, uploading my 180th picture now. haha. so wait patiently (: once i uploaded everything, then i'll put the link up.

today i had my project consultation. im glad now that i can just focus on the "one-child policy" (:

whoohoo. i've been having very random mood swings. i don't know lah. i think friday i'll stop hanging out with the tv03 people. yes, they are nice, they are funny. but i always get a really weird feeling out with them. i mean, seriously, we are from 2 different world. they club and everything. but i don't. the things they talk bout, are stuff i know nuts about.

sigh. but i like them. really.

nvm. perhaps im really tired. i haven't had enough sleep since i left for shanghai. and i feel like im falling. tired tired tired!

but im still not sleeping. stupid me. ):

i miss jeffrey. i just sent my phone in for re-servicing. so i can't sms him. ): bad! sigh.

loveloves.

my laziness to blog bout shanghai & suzhou; Forgive me.'

so, my day back at Singapore was really great. came back, unpacked. and headed for church. darling came to fetched me. felt really good to see him again! (:

i dozed off during sermon quite a few times. in the last 30 mins, i couldn't take it, i went to the toilet and asked ina to accompany me. we chatted outside for awhile. and when we went back to the hall, sermon was just wrapping up. haha. i tell you. im so guilty. and i fell asleep during cellgroup. im sorry CL. ):

yah. i was simply so tired after the nights of not sleeping. haha.
and tonight is another night with no sleep. because. i've to prepare my stuff for project consultation. but im really glad i completed the camp stuff. a great load off my mind (:
haha.
loves.

i better start getting on with my work. so much stuff to do. so many articles to look for and read up on. God bless me. and my love ones. (:

i miss tvo3 - one big family ((: seeya on friday! btw, alex is driving us around in his van. so hurray!

shanghai & suzhou - global citizenship

im really glad im back in Singapore. it has been a rather hectic 6 days 5 nights for me. lol.
i shall blog bout the first day first. because i got time constraint.

i reached shanghai at 6am. and it was bright there. the sky brightens at 5am + . really early morning. went to eat breakfast. it was totally totally horrible. the congee, the salted&preserved veggies, the burnt soy milk. SIGH. i thought i was ill-treated ):

after the not-so-fantastic breakfast, we went to take the maglev train. HOHO! the train was fast. but i fell asleep in the train. because i was sick with a flu. the first day, i almost collapse ):
SIGH. sad.

after the train ride, we took a long bus ride to suzhou. i slept a lot. and i truely felt better. hah. we ended up in Zhujiajiao water village. i'll post the pictures up soon. the weather was freezing cold, but the boat ride was supreme! HOHO,

followed on, we went to this garden. i don't know what is really nice bout it. just plants, trees, ponds. whatever -.- hahaa.
then dinner. then check in, tutorials. the day ended.
the day passed REALLY SLOW i tell you.
and its only the first day, and i wanted to come home badly ):
gotta go. jeffrey is prolly reaching my place. im going church

oh yah. i came back this morning at 525am. and im going church now. hahaha. (:
GIFTS.
and i forgot chin's present. HELP ME.