zonked out.

this is how i'm feeling right now.

sleepy pig.

sigh.

i slept for less than my usual 8 hours per night for 3 nights in a row. and i'm kinda not used to it, zonked out.

hmm.

i feel really bad bout not letting jeffrey just sit back and enjoy his party. and he has to do all the lil planning here and there himself.

i feel like total rubbish.

):

nothing that anyone says or what can make me feel better.

i'm just so sore about it.

and almost in tears.

sigh.

whatever.

qiqi failed this time round as jeffrey's best companion gf. ):

loves.

it is very difficult to love the unlovable!!

sigh.
look at my title.

its so hard to be a christian at times but it rocks most of the time though.
i just can't bring myself to love the unlovable!
hmphhhh.

great great challenge for me ):

sighh. God save me from this traumatizing issue.
bleahhh.

today gs asked me out for kbox.
my reaction was like o.O
(i secretly thought "this guy must be joking again")
but it was for real.
i told him after 6th dec then.
and lynette is coming along too (: WHOOAAA , love her to bits.

and we are going on 8th dec to kbox and stay the whole night out & just enjoy ourselves,
& celebrate lynette's birthday
& what a way to celebrate while jeffrey is in army

hehe.
& the super gong me forgot that my msn nick was put as "Bleah. lion eat watermelon"
hahaha. & gs kept talking bout lion & watermelon.
& i kept thinking it was a concidence. so blur la.
then he kept calling me xigua. & i was like WHAT?
then lynette tell me "of course la, your msn nick write what."

then i was like . OK!
-.-


SIGH.
and now he can't stop calling me xigua.
i asked him, "how u know i am the xigua?"
then he said "cause your boyfriend look like lion mah"

HAHAHA.
super funny la!
-.-


anyway gs is a very funny ahbeng guy.
very small size.
& he's weird. he talk like mad on msn. but in real life, he doesn't open his mouth that much at all.
and sometimes he pretend he doesn't know me. it happens to a lot of other friends too.
weirdo!
i'm excited for dec 8 already.
please call me out more often, friends. especially when he's away.
BOOHOO.

):

my date (:

i simply rate this show 10 pop corns out of 10 pop corns (:

its a definite must-catch!

polar came to fetch me from work yesterday. it was like total sweetness. & a rare opportunity as well. haha.

well, he promised to bring me to the movies on tues in the first place. & he really did.

oh man, i feel like a small lil girl. haha.

ok. had dinner, spent time chatting. and then the movie.

spending just a few hours of quality time is really good.

and did i mention what i saw yesterday? i saw BARNEY!

oh my. i was really elated. haha. i really love BARNEY! its probably because that's the only happy thing i remember from my childhood.

((:

so i told dear, to take a few photos of BARNEY. but i haven't got it from him

he's now riding his bike to malacca.

and i've been really praying very hard for journey mercy.

Lord, protect him and aaron.

let both of them be safe.

i really surrender all my fear to God. i know God will protect them (:

i want to share this song, that Lynette first shared with me.

it's called My Prayer by Devotion.

i shall post the lyrics here.

(spoken)
Dear god,I know that shes out there...

the one Im suppose to share my whole life with.

And in time...

youll show her to me.

Will you take care of her,

comfort her, and protect her...

until that day we meet.

And let her know...

my heart...

is beating with hers.

In a dream I hold you close

Embracing you with my hands

You gazed at me with eyes full of love

And made me understand

That I was meant to share it with you

My heart my mind my soul

Then I open my eyes

And all I see reality shows Im alone

But I know someday that youll be by my side

Cause I know gods just waiting till the time is right

God will you keep her safe from the thunderstorm

When the days cold will you keep her warm

When the darkness falls will you please shine her the way

God will you let her know that I love her so

When theres no one there that shes not alone

Just close her eyes and let her know

My heart is beating with hers

So I prayed until that day (prayed until that day)

When our hearts will beat as one (when our hearts hearts will beat as one)

I will wait so patiently (patiently)

For that day to come (for that day to come)

I know someday that youll be by my side

Cause I know gods just waiting till the time is right

God will you keep her safe from the thunderstorm

When the days cold will you keep her warm

When the darkness falls will you please shine her the way (shine he the way)

God will you let her know that I love her so

When theres no one there that shes not alone

Just close her eyes and let her know

My heart is beating with hers
Is beating with hers (ooo)

My heart is beating with hers (oooo)

Its beating with hers

God will you keep her safe from the thunderstorm

When the days cold will you keep her warm

When the darkness falls will you please shine her the way

God will you let her know that I love her so

When theres no one there that shes not alone

Just close her eyes and let her know

My heart is beating with hers
Oh~~~ its beating with hers(its beating with yours)

a sweet song of romance.

& secretly i would change the words from her to him.

hmmm.

if you want the song, i can send it to you (:

anyway, time to really start working.

i slept really lil last night.

but all worthwhile for just a special date.

God bless everyone,

loves.

i'm in a lemon mood today (:

i'm in a lemon mood.

you know, i once watched a taiwanese drama,

when they talk about lemon being sweet & not sour, and they said smth like, this is when true love appears (:

haha. i think lemon should be sweet & not sour!

i think lemons are really very beautiful especially when you cut them open.

yellow & bright.

i'm in a lemon mood. in a sweet-lemon mood. i feel bright and joyful today.

for no particular reason. perhaps it's all God's joy in me.

hmmm.

today i was talking to a friend about some issues.

& suddenly i felt so joyful. because i finally told it all to someone.

and i know God has His planning. His planning always overwhelm me.

thank God!

today i've a date with polar. & i'm looking so forward to it!

God, thankyou for creating lemons in this world (:

as well as oranges (:

HEHE.

i am madly, deeply in love.

two more weeks, before he really heads in for army.
& its so frustrating.
sigh.

recently, i've been thinking alot. bout what i want to do, how am i going to get use to not having someone there for me when i'm down.
and somehow, i just want to cling on tighter.
and i feel upset ):
so emo right? and people tell me, don't worry la. it's just army.

hmmm.
yah, don't worry. i just pray that God will be my strength, my pillar of support always (:
and then he seem to be so busy even before he goes army.
& how much i just yearn to spend long long quality hours with him.


so emo!
):


anyway, this coming week will be a really busy & hectic one.
jeff is holding is birthday party on fri.
so weds ina & i have to go get the deco stuff, and game stuff.
then thurs, i have choir practice, & i have to decorate the Hallelujah Quadrant.
then fri, i have to rush off somewhere after work @ 5.30pm and reach church by 6.30pm.

hmmm.
hope everything will turn out fine.
okay, i'm heading to jeff's place to wait for him to come home, then we're going out for tea.
need to do some planning for friday. (:
glad i slept really long in the afternoon.

gotta go now (:
lots of love, everybody

still sick

i'm still sick.
the flu has not gone yet.
sigh. i'm so weak. weak ):
horrible.

yesterday, i met joanne for dinner at parkway. my post-birthday celebration.
sakae sushi again.
didn't really eat much because i didn't have much appetite too, i guess.
but had a really good time talking to her.
& telling her some thoughts of mine, that no one bother to ask me about.

& by talking to her, makes me feel loads better, bout how to get things moving & etc.
its really good to have an elder sister to talk to. (:

she bought me a sweet looking bracelet (:
thanks sister.


anyway,
i've really been struggling recently, but the longer it drags, the more i can't be bothered anymore. maybe i'm too tired or what.
sigh. but i know God knows my situation. & He has definitely encouraged me through many people around me.
so still, all thanks to God.

i would say, even if the world forsakes me, God will never fail me.
sigh. i don't know how to say what's on my mind here.
& i guess its okay.

(:

i'm not exactly emo.
haha.
i've been preparing jeff's gift today.
really tired now. & i'm not even 50% done.
and i'm left with 1 week.
sighhh.

))):


ok, gonna stop blogging.
loves.

1 and a 1/2 day of mc

fell sick again.
went to the polyclinic 2 days in a row.
& wasted plenty of time waiting.
but the good thing is. i slept a lot !
and rested well of course.

i'm going to meet joanne in an hour's time. (:
really apologetic i cancelled ytd's dinner. but at least, we can have it today (:
really glad.


hmm.
brother's going Japan today.
hope he'll have fun!
pray for journey mercy (:

loves

Birthday pictures (:

LOTS OF PICTURES (:

the love birds (:

(top) at cinema; waiting for stardust to start (:
(top) at Sakae (:

PROPOSAL TIME ...

agreement of love.
(: happy.
& i'm still smiling (:

BIRTHDAY PARTY AT MARINA SOUTH BBQ (:

he & me (:
left to right: ina, rachel, liting, me
left to right: weishan, ina, me, chien sing, sean
left to right: weishan, yemin, chiensing, sean, ina, me.

left to right: beng, me, ying
left to right: beng, me, ying
jeff's family : nana, jeff, me, joyce, his mom & dad.
US!
choir members: joy, joel, joanne me.

cutting the cake.
still smiling (:
group photo (:

SHALOM (:

chin, esther, ina, jeff, me, rachel, cl, yung, evelyn, liting

lovely cake (:

singing happy birthday
blow the candles (:
me - the happy birthday girl; so blessed

Minnie mouse (: chosen by love.

he said, "because you are as pretty as minnie mouse"

loveeee (:



OK. that's all.

blessed birthday (:

a shocking article

http://today.msnbc.msn.com/id/21882976/

i read this article.
its about a girl of age 13 who hanged herself because of a hoax in mySpace.

she fell out with her previous girlfriend, and this previous girlfriend's mom decided to create a fake account in mySpace using the name Jake. and she made this girl, Megan believed that Jake liked her. Until much later, Jake suddenly told Megan that He didn't want to be her friend anymore because he had heard stories that Megan wasn't nice to her friends.
He started being vulgar online, sending rude messages to Megan telling her things that you are fat, you are a slut etc.
and Megan was so upset.
the best part? her mom did monitor all her internet chatting. Megan was only allowed to access MySpace when her mom's in the room.

as i read this article further, it said that the parents who created the fictional character Jake, was not even apologetic. they said they didn't need to feel guilty and they may be partly responsible but they don't really care.

i was really burdened to pray this morning for this particular family.
the parents of Megan are in the midst of a divorce.
i pray that God just deal with the other family, and give Megan's family some justice.
and for poor Megan who took away her life, i only feel sorrow because she's not able to enjoy anymore, and she's probably taken captive in hell.



what a way to say good morning.

may God just bless each and everyone of you out there, with a blessed day ahead (:
Jesus loves you so much.

(:

monday blues ?

hmm.
anyway, i had a great saturday & sunday. which also means weekend -.-
DUH!

on sat, there was choir practice. and it was the most awkward practice.
because i wore my white mini-skirt. and i totally forgot bout standing on stage & everything!
so when dorcas told me not to wear such short skirt, i was really embarrassed ))))):
i really really forgot, i'm just too used to wearing skirt whenever i just go out, i guess.
but, Lesson Learnt, move on.

so after that i had lunch with jessica, stella, poh lin and sze yu.
had quite a lot of fun and laughter talking, joking (:
great time spent!

spent the night with baby at simpang bedok, its beginning to be our all-time favorite hangout location. (: great food, great company.


Sunday - choir (:
CHOIR was really good in the 2nd service. but of course still good, in the 1st service (:
i was so touched by God's love, that i just kept crying when i sang those few songs during first service. imagine being up on stage, and tears just keep flowing. its really bad but good in another way. hmmm. but i really held back my tears. and i secretly told God, "i will be a better child of God."
2nd service worship was a joyful one this time round. because i was filled with the joy of knowing that God just loves me simply so much, more than i could ever deserve.
and really, thankyou Father for all you've done.

for you live, and you died,
and you rose again on high.
you overcame the grave,
to save me from my sins.

so it was truely so amazing.
had lunch with Shalom (:
and waited for dear at the office. didn't wait too long though
i feel kind of blissful waiting for him. i don't know why.

and dinner at lerkthai with his family.
cute lil joyce drinking a lot of water because it was way way too spicy for her.
poor thing.
but i really enjoy fellowship with his family.


and now,
the fact that there's only 3 weeks before he's heading in to camp,
makes me really scared.
scared because i've no confidence in myself, that i'll always remain strong.
but love can overcome all!

& Perfect love drives out fear.
remember that, all you lovebirds out there (:
be brave, bold & courageous in loving.
& lastly, God loves all of us (:

AMEN(:

a lil update & some photos (:

remember i said i wanted to post photos of the zoo that i went around 6 weeks ago?



haha.







i'll just dish out a few (:

there is a white tiger (:

i like the brightness (: couple love.

of course, this is my favorite animal. Polar rocks!

and i found ina's family (:

there is a bird hiding behind the tree :x

hahaha. nice cozy hut (:

i believe this is Jeff's cousin (: the lion so nua. he don't want to pose for photo!

and a nice pair of love parrots (:

i miss the zoo so much.
i miss laughing so much & just simply enjoying ourselves - just the two of us.

& right now, while you're so busy and i'm sitting at home facing this laptop all alone, i feel so emo. ):
qiqi is feeling really weird this few days. i don't know how to explain or describe this feeling.

anyway, i worked on a small lil project for a whole 1 hour +.
and by working on this small project, its very heart warming. i won't be saying what is it about (: when the time is ripe, you shall know (: hee.

<------random thoughts starting from here ----->

its true that i've to admit that i'm helpless and recognize the fact that God is the only one who can help me.
but many a times, i just struggle on my own without realizing.
it took me quite awhile to realized, i'm still on my healing journey & i haven't recovered yet even though i thought i did.

and Jesus, i'm telling you, its really aching so much. & i suddenly don't know where to turn to.
the world seem so weird. everyone seem so distant. christians or non-christians. we are still your children. but, sigh, i don't know. i don't seem to be able to describe this feeling.
you know, many times, in the lonesome night, i feel like something is amiss from life.
and sometimes, i find myself denying that i'm not alright. because i always felt that, as a christian, you should show pple that you have a really blessed life. and people keep telling me that, leaving me no space to breathe.
sometimes, i wish i could just live in my own world and not recognize that i need others in my life.

i have to be strong, i have to protect myself from all the hurts.
but the more i try to, the more pain it gets.
so Lord, i'm telling you that i cannot do this alone. and i really really need you by my side.
there was a period of time, when i felt that you've forsaken me. but i know you've not, and you'll really be by my side always and always.
i need you so much.

life is really hard. really really hard.
and filled with people that i cannot understand & people that cannot understand me.
i'm often distressed over how insignificant i am, how useless i am, how hopeless i am.
i just wonder where is my worth.
what is my worth, am i just nothing or do i mean something to people, to God.

and this is a really sad post, because as i'm typing, my heart aches.
& i think i need to seek God instead.

bye.

off to seek God (:

(:

finally i'm smiling.
when i thought i wouldn't be able to smile anymore.

yesterday, i left office around 11am.
because i was very tired & uncomfortable.
hmm, i didn't take any MC though ):

anyway,
today morning was really a very happy morning. i meant the part when i reached city hall mrt station.
i was praying that it really wouldn't rain because i didn't have an umbrella with me. & there's no shelter from the MRT to my office!
but to my dismay it was raining heavily.

so i stood there praying God will sent me someone to share their umbrella with me. (actually i was thinking it's impossible because Singaporeans are so..... you know)
anyway, as soon as i finish praying. a guy told me his crossing the road & whether i would like to share an umbrella. i politely rejected but thank him because i wasn't gonna cross the road. haha.
and then immediately another caucasian guy asked me whether i would like to share an umbrella with him, he's heading to Adelphi. and my office is next to Adelphi!
hahaha. so it was really funny.
& i shared the umbrella.
we were practically running there. and he almost slipped and fell 2 times.
he's really funny.

but anyway after saying my thanks. i felt so joyful. i was thanking God for providing.
haha (:

so to me, it is really amazing. no one ever offered to share umbrella with me before CAN!
haha.

(:
yesterday i slept for 5 whole hours in the afternoon. a sleep that i really needed to sleep away all my worries. & it was really good (:


so i guess i'm glad now.
loveeees (:

the eventful week.

hahaha.
so lame. what a title.

i still haven't got over the whole thing.
people have been asking and asking and asking!

i'm engaged. its not a wedding proposal. it is just a engagement. lol.
and i'm not getting married so soon yet. maybe in 3 years? so, no more asking please. -.-
so stressful to face all the questions ):

ok. so the truth is out there.
hur.
i felt like, its time to grow up.
weird.

somehow, i'm quite blissful yet stressed-out at the same time.
but i know God is calling me to trust him and rely on him. He'll work things out.
so i shall just rest in God and allow Him to bring me through.

i'm so blessed.
at work now.

blog other days(:
love.


p.s thanks baby for everything (:

blessed birthday

i'm finally back to blog.
after the four hectic days of celebration.
it was more than i could ever ask for.
& God is really awesome in this four days.

i met lynette on the 7th of nov. two days before my actual birthday.
she treated me dinner.
it was really fabulous having time to catch up with her. and all the nonsense thing to talk about.
(:

on the 8th of nov, i headed down to marina south (again) to celebrate my birthday.
haha. thank God for answering my prayers. good weather, sufficient seats.
haha. it was a blast.
thanks to all who came:
shalom: cl, yung, esther, rachel, evelyn, liting, samuel chin
choir: joy & joanne
my long time friends: beng & ying.
my TP friends: yemin, weishan, chien sing & sean
Jeff's family: mom & dad, juliana & joyce
other friends: JOEL -.- (hahahaha)
and of course, my bestie: INA CHIA XI YING
and my love, JEFFREY AW (:

thankyou so much for coming down.
thanks to Jeff's dad for paying for the dinner & all.
God has indeed blessed me with so much, when all i requested is for a small birthday celebration.

thanks cl for the shoes. thanks esther, evelyn, rachel for the cardigans. thanks jingying, sarah and beng for the cardigan too(: thanks Joy for the green blouse. thanks ina for the scheduler. thanks my dear for the wonderful cake! thanks yung for paying for the drinks! thanks nana & joyce for the necklace! thanks Sean for the bouquet of flowers. 19 of them! oh my, it cost a bomb! and thankyou yemin, weishan & perline for the topshop voucher. thankyou so much to all!
(did i leave out anyone?)

haha. so it was a really blessed day of event.

coming up next,
jeff's & qiqi's individual celebration date.

haha.
it was awesome. i prayed that i would fall sick and be able to get MC.
haha. so i took MC and got the day off!
it was like spending 28 bucks to buy a day out with Jeff, totally worthwhile (:

we headed to Marina Square to watch stardust. it was really a good show.
followed by lunch at Sakae. same as last year. hoho.
so after lunch, i was feeling really unwell & exhausted.
haha. so headed home to rest for awhile.
we spent some time committing our relationship to the Lord again.
it was really awesome during prayers. because God spoke to me. i could hear him speaking straight to me. i was so shaken by his presence. and tears were just running down my cheeks.
and for all the things He has spoken to me, i thank him.
and i was healed of my tireness and flu immediately. amen!

jeff drove me out to Jalan Kayu! and then Seletar camp. the place i wanted to always go eversince aaron & jeff brought me there! haha.
it was a great night. (: really.
i was very touched at one point of time. and all i could ever say, is thank you so much.
for all you have done for me, baby i thankyou (:
you mean a lot to me. & i believe God will show us his way & his will.
let us continue walking with the Lord. closely.
i'm amazed!


and for today!
i met dear in the morning to blade! a good exercise for the day. he dropped by my place for lunch, before heading home to prepare to go church.
& for me, i slept my afternoon through.
& headed to ate's place. they celebrated my birthday for me.
with home made food, and home made birthday cake (:
it was totally awesome!
thankyou all of you.
thankyou ate dorcas, ate izza, ate marlet, ate Macky, Poh Lin, ana, angie & everyone else whom i do not know the name.
hahaha. thankyou so much for organising this small party.
thankyou for the belt. and thankyou poh lin for the nice necklace.
i enjoyed myself a lot.
and thankyou JOY and JOANNE for your spirit with us. and for not inviting me for lunch.
hahaha. EVIL. -.-

& lastly, i want to thank God for giving me such an awesome time these 4 days.
i asked for a small party celebration, but God you gave me more (:
this is how touched i am, Lord.
i pray that everyone will be blessed (:


i love all of you. every single one of you.
thankyou for all the birthday sms wishes, the facebook birthday wishes.
& so much more!

sometimes, sometimes, sometimes

sometimes, all you gotta do is to open your mouth and say the things that you've kept for a thousand years in your heart.



there are many times, i have so much to say but i just keep quiet.

because i know that out of the many things i would really want to say, 99% of them will come out strong and harsh and of course it'll hurt.

but if i keep that 99% in me, i realized that the damage caused, its more than a 100% damage internal.



so many times, i've seen myself falling & falling.

& i ask God, why do you allow this to happen?

and then i understand that, it doesn't mean that even when you're close to God, bad things doesn't happen. bad things happen to make you stronger.

but didn't i know that fact long time ago? however, head knowledge will always remain as head knowledge if you do not know how to turn them into heart application.





my heart has been crushed several times. broken several times by the precious people around me. but nevertheless, i still thank God for every single circumstances that he had placed me in. irregardless of whether it is good or bad. i thank God. because through all these life lessons, then would i allow him to discipline me further and then would i grow strong & seek him even more than before. so in a way, God is really awesome! experience Him for yourself, my non-christian friends. (:





and birthday dinner is just a 2 days away!

whoohooo.

just want to remind my dear friends who are coming, that its a go-dutch party, which means, you've to empty your wallets. i'm pretty sorry about it though.

haha. but pity me. (:

but when i see my guest list growing larger & larger, i feel so blessed!

blessed that i have so many nice, close friends who are willing to come down and celebrate this special day.



on sunday, before dinner for cbtl, all the nov babies were specially prayed for.

& that was when my heart was just pouring out for God.

telling Him how much i thankyou for everything & how bless i really am.



so no more words bout where's my worth.

no more words saying i'm a failure, or i'm useless.

because my hope is in the Lord.

and suddenly i remember what elder Jeffrey Goh said, "i'm not a failure, i did not fail. i was just experimenting" hahaha. that's so hilarious.

ok. so i'm all hyped up.



& facebook has been accompanying me through the boring attachment especially when i've no work to do OR my supervisor is BUSY.

haha.



God, would you just bless my day ahead & all of my friends and sisters/brothers in Christ as well (:

i love you, Jesus.

so so much ((:





loves.

Come Bless The Lord

* for my birthday wishlist, please scroll down to the entry on Nov 1st (:


Come Bless The Lord finally came to an end.
it was really a festive mood of celebration in rememberance of the Lord's goodness and Love.
i was so-not-myself for God on that big huge stage yesterday.

i was just jumping, clapping, dancing, shouting out loud praises for my heavenly father.
& really praise God for the whole hyped up congregation. and when i saw how the congregation were just worshipping, jumping, singing, shouting, i felt so so blessed.
thank you father for always giving me this opportunity, 2nd time round for CBTL.
i've been really blessed.

CBTL came to an end.
through the last whole week, i've been crushed & crushed.
many times i just cry so badly and i ask God, how many times more must i return back to such a state. Lord, i love you. and when i'm in pain, when bad stuff starts haunting me, i know you'll take my hand and walk with me. you'll tell me to lean on you as you bring me through.
but many many times, i just keep telling you, telling myself "i can't do it, Lord. i can't. i'm hopeless. i don't know what to do. i don't think i can do it. i just want to give up."
but i thankyou Lord, that even when i want to give up so badly then ever, you'll never let go of me.
and its been so amazing. through tears & joy, you've always stood with me, holding me up.
thankyou jesus. thankyou so much.

until now, there's a tinge of sadness lingering around in my heart.
when i think about it, i want to cry.
when i hear smth bad, i tell God i think i should give up.
when i'm alone, i want to cry so badly.
but then, the Lord tells me to move on.
and i shouldn't dwell in the sadness anymore.
so Lord, help me stay strong. bless me.
and remove all this negativity in me.
i commit it all into your mighty hands.

thank you for loving me so much.
let me know my worth in you today, oh Lord.


as i was ranting this morning to Lord, how i can't find my worth in anything.
i decided not to do nehemiah devotional today and do highquest. so when i flipped to my highquest verses, i saw the last session " IN CHRIST, I AM SIGNIFICANT" and i'm sure expecting God to speak to me through the last session.
so, God's timing is forever so perfect.

loves.

happy 21st anniversary, BBTC (:

whoohooo!
its BBTC's 21st Anniversary.

i'm supposed to reach church in 24 minutes.
and i've exactly 7 mins to blog, while waiting for my dearest to come trottling (?) in his bike to fetch me.

haha.
we are wearing the red bbtc polo t-shirt today (:
and i think its gonna be really awesome. with a number of more than 1000 people gathered in the new sanctuary to worship and praise God.
plus the Come Bless The Lord choir later that we-singers have been preparing over the last 1 month +.

and God, i pray you just anoint our voices, anoint the musician's fingers and leg. and just bless us with strength & energy.
and let your presence fill the whole sanctuary. lead us into a great worship with you.
bless the people, the congregation.
amen!


i love you, jesus.

my wishlist for this year (:

(i know i know. its only my 19th birthday, why am i making such a big fuss out of it?)
because
because
because....

i like it what. cannot meh!?

hahaha.
so my wishlist.
not according to priority (:



1) my parents will remember my birthday next year & celebrate it for me instead (i don't think you all can fulfill this. hehe)

2) a nice looking watch because i don't have 1.
you can get the stamp watch from heeren that i'm eyeing for, or if a most expensive one, i would love a fossil or levi's watch (:

3) nice t-shirts/blouse (i can wear size S or M. up to you to decide)

4) a new sweater/cardigan ( i need a new one badly)

5) necklaces/earrings (i don't mind hand-make ones)

6) shoes or heels (: especially that pair from bata northstar canvas. its brown with yellow linings.
7) a new wallet.

8) bagg! handbag, bag. whatever (:

9) gift vouchers.

10) a puppy. chihuahua, jack russel, sausage dog, snouzle (:
(hahaha, i think no one will get this for me. a pity. sigh)


hoho.

for me, i appreciate realistic presents nowadays.
because most of the things mentioned above, is not within my own means to get at all.
):
so my dearest friends, cell leaders (refering to CL & yung, of course), ate, mommies, please do me a favor. since you all love me (:


hahaha.
have a blessed week (:
God loves you all !