puggy is sick

Name: Puggy

Breed: Pug

Color: Fawn

Gender: Female

Jeffrey carrying puggy when we were at the beach with annette & Emily. took this picture from emily's blog.

this is my puggy now sick, lying in my arms looking so miserable.



yesterday was the worse day of my life ever.
I received news from my mother that puggy was really sick having difficulty breathing, coughing and everything. i ended work at 4pm. i took a cab home (taxi ride no. 1) then this uncle was really nice. he was willing to wait for me downstairs to let me go up bring puggy down. (taxi ride no. 2)
so we headed to the vet. (he could tahan puggy's smell!) he gave me his mobile number, he said if i were to finish early in half an hour, he would send me back.

but sadly to say, no. puggy's situation was more serious than i thought.
puggy was diagnosed with fluid in the lung. i looked at the x-ray and all i could think of was oh no.
doctor went on explaining what would happen if antibiotics did not work. he said he may have to take the risk of inserting a needle into her lungs. but if the lungs are twisted, and the lungs tear, there may be internal bleeding and she will lose her life. but if we go without treatment at all, she will die also. estimated cost for oxygen and needle is $200 - $300.

anyway, i let her take the antibiotic jab and made payment. total cost at that point of time is $162.
i thought nothing could go wrong at this point of time.
flagged a cab. (taxi ride no. 3) uncle was horribly blunt. wind down all windows. but anyway, we headed back to Pasir Ris. and suddenly Puggy lay all still. her face was swollen. eyes puffy, cheeks swollen. and she laid so still fighting to breathe.
i thought she was dying. I started crying in the taxi. called up the shop they told me to head back immediately. so i told the uncle to u-turn. there was a bad jam. i was fighting to hold back my tears but i could not stop crying.

When i finally reached, i quickly rushed her to the doctor. vet explained that it was an allergy to Penicilin. So they gave her another anti-allergy jab. poor girl having to have 3 jabs in a day.
then i had to let puggy rest at the shop for another half an hour till swelling goes down. by this time, i had no more cash on me. i was only left with $50 in my bank account.

i had to really trust God all things will turn out well. made the next payment which was about $20.

left the shop, took another cab home (taxi ride no. 4) and it costed around $15.

total cab fare for the day: $11+$12+$13+$13 = $49


SIGH.
puggy came home so sickly than ever.
my poor baby.


and so it was really a tough day.

please pray for puggy to have no other complications and that God will really provide for me in this season.
there are many more difficulties i'm going through this season. there're times i don't dare to walk on anymore in fear of what i faced.
i'm experiencing a greater sense of loneliness more than ever.

Lord Jesus, please be with me.


with God's love and mine.

Back with updates.

I have not been blogging for ages!

In this period of my absence, I had been having fun in Batam for 5 days with my cell group for the first 3 days, then with Jeffrey for the next 2 days at his relative's place.

was great fun being there. with all the food, sports, massages and of course, shopping (:
Jeffrey and i spent lots of time knowing each other more in many areas and of course learning to accept, compromise and accomodate with each other.
thank God for this lovely trip that we could bond with one another in the cell group as well as with my dearest boyfriend.

After the trip, as i came back to the reality of life in working, i took up a tuition student.
a P2 boy, rather adorable from the student care i work in.

And shortly as August is starting, i have 2 more students.
so currently i'm taking up 3 tuition students at night.
and i still have my day job to go about.
I teach tuition on Mon-Thurs and Saturdays.

so i've been really drained and exhausted.
please do cover me in prayer.

Days have been flying very fast.
i don't have time to meet up with my friends. i'm really SAD.

Emily, Annette: Certain fridays we can meet up ok? i'll let you know!


and Jeff is going to taiwan in November (on my birthday month).. BOOHOO!
for one whole month!
all girls dread all these from army i guess.

and my 2nd year with jeff is coming up next month! (:
any ideas on gifts? i don't have a budget yet. prolly 200-300.
please tag me (:


with God's love and mine,
qiqi

I worship you, Almighty God.

Afew days ago, i was really joyful as i was going through plannings.
and the first disaster strike, when i don't actually know what i want.
not that i really don't know what i want, but i have been too too discouraged by remarks and disapproval from my family.

now, i just find it so hard to trust in the Lord that He will provide. it takes more than just one miracle but probably a few. and God being our God who is able to create possibles out of impossibles, i would really love to put my trust and faith in him that he will provide.
sigh.

my decision isn't any wrong. it isn't wrong. but it is just a matter whether it's beneficial. why do i have to live up to the expectations of people ?
it's so tough!

)):
and yesterday night, i was at tears asking God what is His direction for me? i couldn't get an answer. i waited upon him, but there was no answer. and i really felt so lost. because i still don't know what's the specific direction to take. and God probably just wants me to wait upon him patiently.

and i'm so stresssss!
it just makes me feel like not thinking of it, not talking bout it anymore!!
ROARRRRRS.

yesterday met up with the two beloved girls, emily & annette. ((:
they were a great fun. though much stuff have happened.
anyway, just want both of you to continue to press on and be strong.
like i say, God has his wonderful plans for both of you.
don't keep thinking of money. like seriously, the world is not all about money.
you can't possibly bring money to your grave. your treasures are stored in heaven not in the banks on earth!
i just hope both of you can find joy in the Lord, not in the materials of the world. i hope God will reveal himself to both of you. (:
JIAYOU LE!

anyway.
tonight is the farewell dinner for kevin, claudia, caron because they are leaving SCC! boohoo!!
Claudia left TKPS already )): SAD.

gotta go work now.
i start work at 1.15 today! WHOOHOO. went for an early morning jog just now. super tired now. feel like just nua-ing and sleep! haha.


LOVELOVES

plans. and more plans.

so much planning nowadays.

two things to plan. one is a secret. the other is a half-secret.
haha.

looking through wedding gowns now. haha.
that's my half secret.

the other. hmm.
if you ask i might tell (:
lol. some already know of it. whoohoo.

i will just go with my plans as the Lord leads. lalala.

i'm in a superb joyful mood now. heh. miss my darling polar so much (:

loves!

back from church camp.

was back from camp last thursday (:

camp was simply one word: AWESOME !
haha.
i never ever spent so much time with God at one go before. NEVER!
and after spending so much time alone with God i just felt so touched by the Spirit. wanting to even spend more time with God!

Michael was a great speaker although he often move off-topic. haha. but his stories are really humorous.
i finally had a breakthrough to one of my issues that i had been holding on for so long.
have been hearing so many people coming up to talk to me. my mind was bombarded with conversations and all.

but the best conversation is still one with the Holy Spirit speaking to me and also with Michael and Esther (:
awesome anointed couple of God!

haha.
i won't share my experiences here because it is really long.
to summarized camp; i'm no longer the same. not a caged eagle but a eagle that is free to soar up high for God!


and i finally came back and met baby. was really missing him in camp.
he couldn't come camp because of army )): sad.
and i was just thinking (random thoughts) if we're able to get married next year, the next church camp we can go together. hahahahaha. like i said RANDOM.

-.-
sigh. love him! he's having worship practice now.
and he's not feeling very well.
but i know in his weakness, God will make him strong.


will blog again. SOON. i hope.

mosquitoes attack.

recently i haven't been sleeping well at all.
lots of bites have been appearing on my legs and arms.
frustrating moment yea?

sighhh.
please pray that i can have some good sleep soon.
i'm really very drained from all this motion and whatever. ):

baby's really busy in tekong now.
executing some kind of exercise
i'm so glad tmr it's Friday!

lovelove


p.s i'm intending to get a Nintendo DS Lite next month. what do you think? hahaha. estimated cost 245. (:

striving really really hard.

home from dinner with shalom at an indonesian restaurant at clark quay.
the food is, not bad but there was fish )):

this whole week had really been hectic.

i had a slight fever due to a cold i caught from walking in the rain.
and lot's of unhappy issues resulted from this cold. and i'm really still annoyed but i think i'll just surrender it all to the Lord.

i decided on my final few alternatives to my future career. we will see how it goes.

anyway, last wed, i brought my students on an outing to MINT Toy Musuem.
it's really cool with all the old toys ranging from year 1940s to the present now.
i only got a few shots from my phone. gonna upload them (:

finally caught narnia on friday. it's really good. as in, if you managed to get the hidden message C.S Lewis was trying to portray. and as usual Aslan rocks he's really handsome and survy in there (: and i was trying to tell jeff, that Aslan is a better looking lion than he is. haha. (:
ok short update here.

gonna upload pictures. btw, tmr is my 21st month with my beloved. and i truly still love him so dearly. more than i could ever imagine i could ever love. (:

pictures:
one of my student's birthday.
the little small face girl wearing grey right infront of the cake is fernansa.

blurred poster.
strawberry shortcake.
snow white and the seven dwarfs. the old time snow white had blonde hair not black.
barbie dolls.

bearrrrs.




Singapore banned this toy because of racism.

it was said that felix the cat used to had a big tummy. and there goes.

mickey mouse.

tom and jerry


this poster is worth a lot of money. because king kong is standing on the twin tower.
more mickey mouse (:

astro's boy sister.
godzilla
old time tarzan.

bugs bunny.

batman

tintin!
popeye

my most cheeky pri one boy - li yang.



flintstones!

the end!
hope you enjoyed.