HAPPINESS. DO YOU HAVE IT?
do you have it? i think happiness is a very broad term. what is the true definition of happiness?
looked up the dictionary. and there were 2 explanations.
1. the quality or state of being happy.
2. good fortune; pleasure; contentment; joy.
so what's being happy? you can be happy, yet feel lonely at the same time. you can be happy yet feel that smth is missing.
to me, happiness is when i can stop getting hurt, when i can laugh from the bottom of my heart all day. happiness is when i see no more corruption in the world. happiness is when everyone is happy. that's my happiness. happiness is when im able to spend my entire life with him.
so what is yours?
i hate to see people telling me that life is meaningless (though i say that sometimes, but soon i came to a realization that its not meaningless, everyone has a purpose in life). i hate people to have suicidal thoughts. i hate to see people criticize bout everything they can. about people's dressing, the way they look. yes laughing is prolly an enjoyment to you. but its just wrong.
but i've no right to go interfere in anyone's personal life.
i hope happiness will come my way soon. no doubt, i do feel happy. but my definition of happiness must be a long-term happiness. i want true happiness, not happiness on the surface.
i hope all of you will get your true happiness someday, somehow. God bless.
OK. yesterday i had a so-so day. but i came home glad. glad i told you why. glad that i didn't keep it in myself again. its not the things that comes before me that annoys me. i just want to see a happy jeffrey everytime i see you. i want to see the jeffrey i went out with during our first date. that's my desire. it doesn't matter if we don't meet often, as long as each time i see you, i can see you happy. you being happy is the most important thing to me.
i cannot explain the kind of joy i've now. indescribable.
oh well.
today im going to meet girlfriends ! hmm, im meeting ina at 11am. to go change my passport photo, and have a chat with her, then i'll be going TM to meet annette&emily at 7pm. (: whoohoo. a great day with the girlfriends. anyway its good that i plan to meet the girlfriends on friday. because jeffrey is busy with worship practice. -.-
hmmm. hope we'll all have fun today. though i've a lack of funds. AIYA. haha. i overspent. and i don't know how. -.- haha. i can't remember how i overspent. -.- stupid.
nvm.
and and 9 more days before i leave for shanghai! whooohooo. hope i can get to bunk in with yingjie or clar. (: my two hopes. i think chances to bunk in with clar, is abit far ar. though we same coach, but not in the same class. yingjie still got greater chance because she's in the same group, same class. haha.
but then again yingjie and i are of the same race. -.- so they might split us up. BLEAH.
haha. but i love tv03 as well as the orphanage comm (: wheeees.
next week im so free. anyone want to date me out? lols. its kinda sian to stay at home always. haha. nvm, i can start packing my luggage (:
loveloves
gotta go. what a long entry today.
gotta go. what a long entry today.
hmmmmm.
loves (:
