Rainbow Love

i need some time with you. only you.

my title says, im in need of a romantic date. a one month one time date. with aw cher wah, jeffrey. you can't escape boy.

had a great sunday at his place with his family and hui sa came too (:

but, when i came home. i felt crushed by smth someone told me. and i really am lost for words. sigh. what else can i say. trust is that important in my world. but to them, i've lost it for i-don't-know what reasons. i guess, God is in control. He'll definitely make a way out for me.

today while having highquest, i was saying i feel happy that God owns me. its so true. i get so much security from God. that finally, someone owns me. someone whom i respect and love with all of my heart. i get distressed when people starts shunning me because i am a christian, because i am holy in their eyes, because i don't scold vulgarities like they do. because i don't go clubbing like they do.

in most people's eyes, im just a good girl that go homes early everyday. but although, such stuff happens, i'll not hide the fact, that i am a christian. i'll not hide the fact, that i read the bible, i'll not hide the fact that i spent quite an amount of time in church. i'll not hide. but i'll be proud of myself being a christian. that i've a wonderful God, that i want to share with you all.

i began to reflect on myself these 2 weeks because of the highquest. sometimes, im really not doing the right thing. for example, when the people were making fun of jialing, i joined in and laughed. i felt so guilty. this is definitely not the correct way. and i am definitely not showing christ character in me. and for this, i confess. and repent.

but guilt still stays in my heart. SIGH.

anyway, to the person who talked to me in msn just now, if i ever said such stuff to her, i'll apologise. but the thing is, im pretty sure i never told her. if i did say, im very sorry.

sigh. no more gatherings for me.
one is because of the issue that happened. second, im too busy with work and major project.
the busier i am, the better. but i cannot be too busy till i forget God.
like what Ps Dan foo says, "for those of you who can't sacrifice just 7 mins of your everyday life to read God's words.............." yea! faithful. (:

ok. gotta go.
loves.