Rainbow Love

suddenly, i reached a dead-end. i don't know whether i have the energy to climb the wall infront, or should i turn back. but if im turning back, is there a turn-back for me still?


i've felt utterly lonely in my this few weeks of poly. the major project stress is killing me. im not able to communicate well with my members. and its leading me to destruction. and i'm seperated from my friends. i go to work every mon,wed, fri. and i can't find anyone to go out with. partly because im busy or they are busy.

tell me what i should do. many many times a day. i tell God, its okay. i can rely on you. and i'll rely on you. my friends may not be with me. but you are my best friend. so i'll trust in you.
but these are all head knowledge that i've never applied using my heart. at the end of the day, i feel worse than ever.

i know God will help me through. i really trust in Him that he'll see me through. but right now, i just need a lil concern that is hard to get, because i can't share what is inside me. i can't share because everyone's busy. my heart's breaking. really.

who can be here with me right now? i need someone.



on the happier note/not so happy note, i cut my hair short . so yah.
i think i should rest soon. im going crazy soon.
tmr there's choir. that's prolly the only thing im looking forward to.


nights