Rainbow Love

when im sick, things just seem to go wrong one way or another.

exhausted. had to dragged myself to school although i was sick and feeling so weak.
sigh. i feel like saying a lot of things. but i am really unable to do so.
fear is an awful feeling. its really awful. especially when fear is the foothold of the devil ):


but father God, i pray that you just remove this fear in me. fear of uncertainty. fear of losing. fear of not being good enough. so many many fears. Lord, i just surrender all these fear into your hands. take me under your arms and give me comfort. for you are my strength and refuge in times of troubles and needs. Lord just help me get through this awful period of my life.
in jesus's name amen


would you show me some concern? would you tell me that im good enough? would you tell me that im needed?
im so upset. it seems like when my spirit is down, virus just always attacks me. and when im attacked by virus, all kind of emotions attacks me.
im breaking already.
but God, just let your Holy Spirit touch my heart. and fill me with your joy once more.
i shall trust in you. like always.



i failed one termtest paper. i can hear the voices in my head already.
"good for you, you deserve to fail"

i really needed you. but you just wasn't there.