my own personal space; away from the prying eyes.

29th July 2007

my personal space. after closing down the other blog.
perhaps only queen will know my blog url.
*winks but shhh. keep it low-profile. haha. no one is supposed to know i still blog.

i cannot get over not blogging, afterall i still need a space where i can pen down thoughts.

i just reached home. read ina's blog and i felt this aching in my heart. ):
sigh. what can i do.
the more she stays closer to me, the more i seem to be hurting her.
God, i'm at the extreme. feeling weary. but i want to press on.

i don't want to give up at all.
i just want to heal.
heal from all the wounds in my heart.
i just want to be strong and not cry anymore.
i always feel that no one can understand me. Lord,


do you sense the insecurity in me?
do you sense my helplessness and hopelessness when i always feel that i'm an "extra" ?
do you sense my loneliness and sorrow?

Lord, i want to get rid of all these. i want to remain joyful always and always. please, help me to help myself . help me to get rid of all these pain. on the lighter note, i went for combined cell outing just now. i didn't really interact with the other cell much prolly because i don't feel comfortable. hmm. went to see aaron's performance at heeren. it was good.

haha blog again later. cs is at my house doing project now. (: