Rainbow Love

wednesday.
i've been pretty much alone for 3 days.
working has turned me into a loner.
lols.

its really so funny.
everyday at work. i pack brochures.
during lunch. i eat alone. i surf blogs. i blog. i sleep. i do my qt.
and when its time to go home.
i pack my stuff, leave the office. head to the mrt station and return home.
on the train i would look up in the sky, at the clouds to admire God's creation.
then i would silently talk to him. telling him how i feel.
what my plans are.
i know he knows it all already. but i just feel like telling someone.

and then when i reach home, i wash up. i lie on my bed with my laptop on my stomach
and then i surf the net.
and then once its 9pm. i go to bed.
(i reach home at 7pm)

lol.
see how boring my daily routine is?
BLEAH. -.-
i'm anticipating Friday. where my honey bear is finally free for a date with me.
and also i'm meeting the girlfriends in the day i guess.
haha.
so, i'm really excited!

sometimes, i feel totally redundant in this world.
i often feel like "it doesn't matter whether i exist or not. Because no one notices, even if i were to disappear, nobody would care"
its a negative feeling right?
entrust it all to Jesus, my Savior.

Through this period of time, where time is spent in solitude, i began to really seek Him.
reading His words everyday just brings peace & joy in me.
so thank God for that!

hmm.
Ate Badette emailed me today to ask how am i. haha.
i was quite touched by her email.
so i just replied her. and i'm anticipating her reply.

you know what, today as i was doing qt.
i realized that most of the time, when i need someone to talk to,
there's always no one around.
because everyone's busy.
but then when i ask God to provide me with someone.
He never did.
i finally understand why.
because i prayed and told him to help me trust him, rely on him only & not on man.
so i guess God really is teaching me how to seek him first and not others.
Thank you Jesus (:

Lord,
i surrender every part of me into your hands.
keep me in the light.
that even if in darkness, light will still shine somewhere.
i pray that the past would no longer be a stumbling stone in my life.
i pray that i'll look towards the future.
and i'll continue to seek you in whatever circumstances i'm facing.
Lord i thankyou for the wondrous works you've been doing in my life.
i know that i am unworthy because of my sins.
but i also want to thankyou for your love and forgiveness of my sins.
thankyou so much.
i've found your purpose in my life.
and Lord, i want to work towards this purpose.
i want to stand up strong and glorify your name.
Oh Jesus, let me sing a sweet song for you always & always.
Amen.



left with 5 mins before lunch break is over.
God bless me.
hope time pass fast!

love everyone (: