some memories

I chanced across a blog that brings back memories of the past. I remember going through a lot of emotions at that time; a lot of hatred, bitterness, unforgiveness and depression.

As I came across that blog, I took some time to digest the words written in it. It was written a while ago, yet I chanced upon it. I imagined if I had read that particular post a few years back then, how much more challenging it will be for me to snap out of it and change myself to who I am now.

I wonder if they know that I'm no longer the same idiotic person as before. I wonder if they know that I've changed under the strong transformation from God. I wonder if they know that now, I'm learning to care more for others and less for myself.

In the past, we had too many misunderstandings. I thought that you ditched me and you thought that I wasn't worth it. I wondered if you really knew how i was coping with everything. I wondered if at that time, as my best friend, you knew how i was feeling all the time. But then I realised, you never did and you never will.

It seems that God has make it such a way that we'll never cross our paths again. I wonder if there will be an opportunity when we can all sit down face to face and remincse the past, and talk through it. Of course, I know that what has pass, has passed and I should have let go but I wish I could make up for the lost.

As I read through the blog, I realised you are still going through so much of the emotional rollercoaster. And I see the difference in both your's and my world. God has made such a big impact in my life, that I'm able to step out of the whole rollercoaster issue, deep down in my heart, I wish it was the same for you. I wish and sincerely hope that you can be happy, can be joyful and come back to the arms of Christ who loved you so deeply first.


You are one of the best story of my life but also the worst story of my life.
What a contradiction.

I still think of you, pj. so much. God bless you and I pray that you'll find true joy in this life of yours that you may continue to walk through this journey with His strength and boldness.

(:




Yesterday, I had an intensive mahjong session. haha.
slept quite late last night and I still have 2 tuition lessons!

Just a short update: My dad's operation went smoothly. Praise God (: