Rainbow Love

i am feeling all weary and tired today. i had carried a broken heart to church today.
but as i started my morning prayers before service started. as i laid all burdens at the feet of the cross, i did felt an inner peace in me. and that i give thanks for.

choir was good. my second time serving. but i may not be able to continue. at first i felt that, my mom wouldn't have comments about me serving. but i was really wrong. and i have to honor my parents. so i'll just pray for God to speak to me. to give me an answer on whether to continue serving.

and pray for my mom. she backslided. and i just noticed it only now. what a failure i have been. sigh. well. i plan to bring her for christmas hokkien service on the 23rd dec. so hopefully she can go. (((:

i really feel tired today. but amazing thing is. i have this inner peace in me. although im tired. although i know there are a lot of problems for me to face. somehow four words keep ringing in my mind. "peace be with you" its like Jesus constantly holding my hand not letting go of me. and telling me that im here with you to face everything with you.
and true enough i know He is here with me. so no matter how weary i am. i know i'll recover.(((:

i won't blog much today.
i won't be seeing him for really quite some time. mon.tues.thurs.fri.sat.sun.
i still have a lot of hidden emotions in me that needs pouring out. but its only for God to hear. (:

bye.