Rainbow Love

i have said that i would really like to stop blogging. because i felt its really a dread. But then recently i read from somewhere. that it is really good to jot down thoughts about God. and my daily experience with Him. So i thought i would continue blogging about the goodness of my God.

today i continued reading the wounded woman again.
and i came across this.

FAITH

F- Fully
A- Abandoned to God
I- In
T- Trust and
H- Humility

oh, how true is that. to surrender all our hurts to Him. And He will take them all from us. and grant us with inner peace.

today i wrote another journal entry for creative writing. i shall share it here. im gonna copy and paste it. (((:

Some people said I am a strong girl of my age. Not in terms of physically but mentally and emotionally. Perhaps they are really right after a long time of struggles in life.
I began to know people more. I began to know how to reach out to the broken souls in the world. There was once, I was on the way to school on the bus. I saw this girl, who seemed around the same age as me. On her left wrist, there were scars. No doubt, these scars were evidence of suicidal thoughts in her. I saw a certain sorrow in her eyes that were so deep. The loneliness in her eyes had shown it all. I felt my heart ache slightly.

I prayed, “Oh God, teach me how. Teach me how to reach out to the people around me, even if I do not know them.”
And thus, I prayed sincerely for her. That she will be able to live through the whole lot of difficulties and come out as a strong young lady.

I always felt that people who try to take away his or her life are really foolish. Of course that includes me in the past. In the past, in the darkness, I had always wanted to die. I always wanted to fade away. The whole world seemed to dislike me, and there was no where I could turn to.

I knew how it was like to be all alone. The pain is not any normal pain. But a pain that can really take your whole life away, if you are not careful. I guess this is the reason why only people who have been hurt are able to really reach out to the broken hearted out there. Because only people like us, are able to clearly understand the pain and brokenness in them. And because I emerged victoriously out of my darkness, I am able to relate better to those who need help.

I didn’t make up a story about the girl. I really saw her. And I felt really troubled upon seeing those scars. And these scars gave me tears. I would have liked to hug her and lay my hands upon her to give her my blessings. And of course, tell her that Jesus loves her. But I guess, it would be really weird because I do not know her at all. But I leave it to God to do the healing.
My entry is long today. But it contains much of my emotions of that day.

this is what i have wrote. I just wanted to share.
Well, im willing to be that hand to the many out there who are hurt. wounded deeply. i have been there. but God has shown me the light.

In the wounded woman, i read about how a group of woman with wounds nursed their hearts. When they were asked to draw a picture that represents their wound and God.
one person drew a vase. with cracks. but this cracks has light coming out of them.
The interpretation of this drawing is really simple. God has made use of our wounds so that we may glorify Him.

Once durng sermon, this message was conveyed to me. And until now i still remember it clearly, " God must wound us deeply in order to put us to greater use." do i hear an Amen for that?
AMEN.

thats what i really feel. Let me reach out to the broken souls and hearts out there. Father, i just pray that you put me to really good use. Let my story be a living testimony to the many others out there. That they may face their wounds in their hearts and walk out of the darkness victoriously. Amen.

its a long entry so far. but its all worthwhile.
and one last thing. Never compare your life with other people.
Having troubles are not a bad thing. having no troubles, leading a carefree life is worser. Because they will never learn. never.