Come Bless The Lord

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Come Bless The Lord finally came to an end.
it was really a festive mood of celebration in rememberance of the Lord's goodness and Love.
i was so-not-myself for God on that big huge stage yesterday.

i was just jumping, clapping, dancing, shouting out loud praises for my heavenly father.
& really praise God for the whole hyped up congregation. and when i saw how the congregation were just worshipping, jumping, singing, shouting, i felt so so blessed.
thank you father for always giving me this opportunity, 2nd time round for CBTL.
i've been really blessed.

CBTL came to an end.
through the last whole week, i've been crushed & crushed.
many times i just cry so badly and i ask God, how many times more must i return back to such a state. Lord, i love you. and when i'm in pain, when bad stuff starts haunting me, i know you'll take my hand and walk with me. you'll tell me to lean on you as you bring me through.
but many many times, i just keep telling you, telling myself "i can't do it, Lord. i can't. i'm hopeless. i don't know what to do. i don't think i can do it. i just want to give up."
but i thankyou Lord, that even when i want to give up so badly then ever, you'll never let go of me.
and its been so amazing. through tears & joy, you've always stood with me, holding me up.
thankyou jesus. thankyou so much.

until now, there's a tinge of sadness lingering around in my heart.
when i think about it, i want to cry.
when i hear smth bad, i tell God i think i should give up.
when i'm alone, i want to cry so badly.
but then, the Lord tells me to move on.
and i shouldn't dwell in the sadness anymore.
so Lord, help me stay strong. bless me.
and remove all this negativity in me.
i commit it all into your mighty hands.

thank you for loving me so much.
let me know my worth in you today, oh Lord.


as i was ranting this morning to Lord, how i can't find my worth in anything.
i decided not to do nehemiah devotional today and do highquest. so when i flipped to my highquest verses, i saw the last session " IN CHRIST, I AM SIGNIFICANT" and i'm sure expecting God to speak to me through the last session.
so, God's timing is forever so perfect.

loves.