sometimes, sometimes, sometimes

sometimes, all you gotta do is to open your mouth and say the things that you've kept for a thousand years in your heart.



there are many times, i have so much to say but i just keep quiet.

because i know that out of the many things i would really want to say, 99% of them will come out strong and harsh and of course it'll hurt.

but if i keep that 99% in me, i realized that the damage caused, its more than a 100% damage internal.



so many times, i've seen myself falling & falling.

& i ask God, why do you allow this to happen?

and then i understand that, it doesn't mean that even when you're close to God, bad things doesn't happen. bad things happen to make you stronger.

but didn't i know that fact long time ago? however, head knowledge will always remain as head knowledge if you do not know how to turn them into heart application.





my heart has been crushed several times. broken several times by the precious people around me. but nevertheless, i still thank God for every single circumstances that he had placed me in. irregardless of whether it is good or bad. i thank God. because through all these life lessons, then would i allow him to discipline me further and then would i grow strong & seek him even more than before. so in a way, God is really awesome! experience Him for yourself, my non-christian friends. (:





and birthday dinner is just a 2 days away!

whoohooo.

just want to remind my dear friends who are coming, that its a go-dutch party, which means, you've to empty your wallets. i'm pretty sorry about it though.

haha. but pity me. (:

but when i see my guest list growing larger & larger, i feel so blessed!

blessed that i have so many nice, close friends who are willing to come down and celebrate this special day.



on sunday, before dinner for cbtl, all the nov babies were specially prayed for.

& that was when my heart was just pouring out for God.

telling Him how much i thankyou for everything & how bless i really am.



so no more words bout where's my worth.

no more words saying i'm a failure, or i'm useless.

because my hope is in the Lord.

and suddenly i remember what elder Jeffrey Goh said, "i'm not a failure, i did not fail. i was just experimenting" hahaha. that's so hilarious.

ok. so i'm all hyped up.



& facebook has been accompanying me through the boring attachment especially when i've no work to do OR my supervisor is BUSY.

haha.



God, would you just bless my day ahead & all of my friends and sisters/brothers in Christ as well (:

i love you, Jesus.

so so much ((:





loves.