life can be pretty unpredictable

life can be a bore, it can be full of joy and hope or it can be one that's full of bitterness and sorrow.
to me, i prefer it to be full of joy and hope (who doesn't) but sometimes, it gets a tad too boring because you go through the same routine lifelessly.
for example, waking up at 6am, boarding bus 359, taking the train to city hall (sometimes you get a seat, sometimes you don't), walking to Aldephi to buy breakfast and then walking to supreme court, go through the detector. and blah blah blah, the list goes on.

but out of the usual routines, there will be unexpected event that spices up your life (:
like... having to joke with nazim (when sometimes his jokes are not too funny), talking to khar eng about the baby boy in her stomach and etc etc.

and i've just got a new after-graduation job!
i got through my interviews (:
although i will be on 3 months probation, i know that God has really led me to this job, this ministry i call it. and i know i've lots of obstacles to face. but i will eventually get through it!
so friends, i will be at church for the 1st month for intensive training, and then i'll be stationed at Telok Kurau Primary. (why do my life always have to associate with Telok Kurau ?)

haha.
amazing.

ok so attachment is ending in 10 days excluding the weekends.
i'm elated. but i will miss the people here very much.
hehe.



you know, i was going through my portfolio yesterday. and i flared up and wipe off all the words written with a correction tape.

the question was: What do you see yourself as in 5 years?
my answer was: be married to XXX, be happy with all my friends ________ (who doesn't exist in my life anymore)

i was screaming inside my head with so much fury at how stupid childish i was.

let's go on.
the 2nd question was: What do you see yourself as in 30 years?
my answer was: have lots of children with that same XXX, be really good friends with ______ (same as above)

and XXX is someone whom i definitely would not like to see or face for the rest of my life.
bad bad memories.
and its a struggle that i've been telling God about. erase those memories :x

you know what i mean right?
i almost died.
and surprisingly, the changes not only came with an increase in age, but also because i started to walk closely with God.
such drastic difference in maturity in a short 1 and a 1/2 year.

and right now, i miss jeff.
hahhaa. i wonder if polar bear goes field camp, will he transformed into sun bear?


hmmm. interesting.

friday, come soon please!