some thoughts.

recently, i have been troubled by a few things.
i really don't have time to sit down and talk to someone about it.
but well, now at work, when i'm sick of doing up that powerpoint.
i decided to blog.

year 2008 has reached.
to me, year 2007 was the year that i was blessed the most.
in terms of school, church, financially, relationships with friends, my boy and etc.
but there are plenty of issues that i would just sigh and say, oh God, why am i regretting right now? or why is it this, and why is it that.

i didn't really ask why. oh well.

issue no.1
i'm feeling upset over a little girl that i really care for. someone whom i hold dear to my heart. recently, she's showing me lots of attitude. she doesn't cares whether i'm around anymore. she doesn't calls me when she sees me around. and she just totally show you the "i-can't-be-bothered-with-you-face".
its really hurting. but there's really nothing you can do. and i felt really helpless at point of times.
i know i can't please everyone. but right now, i'm just at loss of what to do.

issue no.2
ok. this issue is rather stupid too.
i always talk about shining for God. leaving heartprints. but at this one time, i guess i burst. and i feel regretful about it.
so one fine morning, i decided to ask friend A out for lunch. i dislike asking her out for lunch because she always has a lot of last minutes plan or she has this or that on. and its really a whole load of excuses. so this particular morning, i smsed her. and she replied that she'll meet me for lunch. and boy, i was really glad there was no excuses. but i was so wrong again. because later on just before lunch, she smsed me and said she has to go raffles to buy some gifts during lunch.
& i know it would take long. so i was really frustrated. i don't know why. (now as i'm typing this, i feel stupid) but anyway i replied this harsh and blunt sms "please remind me not to ask you out for lunch anymore. too many excuses. its so annoying"
i can't believe i actually said that!
double SIGH.

issue no.3
i made jeff really upset on 1st Jan 2008 at 1pm.
how annoying.
and i practically cried my eyes out. it was so hurting. but oh well, its all over.
but i still feel lousy. and my poor boy is in camp now.
missing him loads.
sighhhhhhhhh.

ok. there are plenty more to be listed down. but i shan't do on. cause its a tad too personal.

anyway, jeff's platoon mates thought i was his sister, and they were interested in me. they asked jeff whether i'm his sister. jeff told me " i wanna wack them man"
hahaha. i almost died laughing when i read that stupid hilarious sms of a jealous polar bear.

and whenever i just think about that sms, my heart skips a beat, and i just smile so foolishly at myself. hehe.

and i'm sad to announced, that i'm sick once more with the flu bug.
perhaps i should really rest. instead of running around despite being sick.
the last time i was sick, i never rested. and its a no-wonder i'm sick again.

heh.

and my year 2008 resoultions?
to be updated really soon.
i'm so busy recently. that i hardly go online.
besides no one really reads my blog. hehe.

seeyou all soon peepos.