a disastrous day

daddy was hospitalised the day before.
he has been pooing out loads of blood. he's still in hospital today, not sure yet when he can be discharged.

bad incident #1
yesterday, i had the intention to go visit him. so i went with my mom.
in a rush, i left my phone at home. after reaching whitesands. i told my mom to go ahead, so i took the same bus back home, to get my phone. i was afraid jeff couldn't contact me (esp he's in taiwan now) and also, i haven't informed my tuition student i could not make it for tuition.

and when i got home, i had missed jeff's call already.

bad incident #2
i reached novena, but my mom told me to come down to toa payoh instead, she said don't have to visit daddy. later on then visit, she pulled me along to some karaoke with all her old friends. which is smth i definitely hate, and do not enjoy.
my purpose was to visit my dad, not play and have fun like this. i was so upset.
so i left, on my own.

bad incident #3
i waited very long for a bus, more than 1/2 an hour. anyway, i got up the bus, when the bus just turned into tampines area, it broke down.

bad incident #4
i thought to myself when i finally reach my void deck, thank God i'm home.
i used my key to unlock the door, but...
the door could not unlock! i tried and tried. i called my mom and brother, but they were not free!
after trying for 20 mins, my key got stuck. and after the whole day of event, i just cried outside my door.
i called ina, and started crying over the phone, telling her how miserable my day was.

bad incident #5
i left my keys at the door, without thinking of taking out the metal grill key. i headed for jeffrey's house to visit puggy instead. after being at his house for no more than 15 mins, my mom called.
she scolded me for leaving the metal grill keys outside, she told me to walk back immediately to get the keys, then walk back to jeff's place. it was so terrible to have to walk that long distance to and fro. so i brought puggy out.

bad incident #6
it started to drizzle and rain! ):


that was my whole day.
i felt so exhausted. so tired, especially when my pillar of support is just not here. i couldn't lean on him and cry. i couldn't do anything. everything was helpless.
my dad. i don't know what's wrong, i only know, things has worsen quite a lot from a few months back, i'm kind of living in fear. but, i do not know what to do anymore.
but to trust God. trust in God and be still .



p.s thanks ina for helping me stay calm over the phone yesterday,i do appreciate it so much (: