i miss this boy so much.
had a long talk this morning with him, a really good talk (:
daddy has been discharged. but, he has to go back to the hospital next week again.
i really pray that it isn't cancer or anything like that.
just when i start to love him, appreciate him, i pray he won't be taken away from me like that.
you know, it's so hard to face all this pain, yet force myself to smile, play games, have fun. but yet, i have to do it all the time. i'm full of fears, yet i'm still playing away happily.
i don't know why i'm typing all these random stuff. but i'm just hurting as usual.
my dad's condition, myself, you. i just don't know what to do.
talked an hour long on the phone with christine.
somehow, God is teaching me new things through people, through situations. especially when baby is not around, this is the best time for me to absorb things.
i'm so zonked out now.
& i think i owe a few people apologies.
hmmmm.
on a happier note,
happy birthday joanne! (:
will see you later at your party
(i don't think you'll see this, but oh well)
