yesterday morning was really tiring, heart wretching, lots of guilt and shame.
just when i thought that i just couldn't find the energy to smile anymore, i realized that i'm very blessed with friends who were able to make me smile naturally.
went for joanne's 21st birthday yesterday night. it was really hot and warm! haha.
but i guess meeting up with my poly schoolmates was really fun. honestly, i never really thought that i would be able to talk to them, or that our "frequency" will match or whatsoever.
but after meeting up yesterday, i never regretted my decision.
all of a sudden, i just decided to open up myself to making friends again. give myself a chance to know people more, giving people a chance to step into my world.
eversince don't know when, i always had a wall blocking people from stepping in, i only mix with people my heart allowed. but right now, i'm learning to open up to others.
(:
Sunday, 24 May
today, was on duty for ushering. the second time ushering already. it's quite easy to get about it.
it was an awkward morning for me. i just had mixed feelings bout stuff.
but i guess, soon after lunch, things started to get better and better. i thank God for that.
today sermon was all about unanswered prayers.
there are times when i feel so discouraged bout my prayers never getting answered. but today i was so encouraged. and i felt God just speaking to me, telling me that he has been hearing my prayers. and through all these difficult times, he has been there, and he knows what i'm going through, the pain i'm experiencing, the fears and stuff.
i was so touched by God that i just stood there shaking and crying out to him. letting God do the healing in me.
lunch was good (: then someone mentioned ktv again impromptu. haha. -.-
so we headed to teo heng. it was like abi's first time in ktv. haha.
it's so cheap!
i forgot to take pictures ):
anyway, after that another impromptu suggestion was to go home and get changed, then head to east coast park. so clayton, and his friend, and shaun jogged, whereas christine cycled and i blade.
i think though this two impromptu event, i managed to get my spirits back. and also, feel much better about fellowship with christine.
eversince, jeffrey left for taiwan. things has been happening one after another. it left me heart broken, left me in so much pain, so much fear. but something that comforts me is that, i know i'm growing stronger through every single event.
i learnt plenty of things in this tough journey. and i know i'm not alone.. i have wonderful friends supporting me every now and then.
thankyou, my friends. for being there for me always.
i also learnt that true friends are the one who tells you the truth always, though it may hurt so much initially, but then it's only because they hope the best for you.
thankyou christine. everything spoken on the phone, just means so much to me. (:
thankyou ina, for always understanding me even before i speak, for always being able to make me smile and feel so much motherly love. (haha)
thankyou lfc, your jokes always makes me laugh non-stop (:
many many thanks. (:
on a random note, i miss jeffrey. HAHA
