tests and trials

Dear Lord,
Please help me and help my girls.
help me to fight from victory. Teach me you ways, dear Lord.
my heart aches for the girls. You hear our cries from our hearts. May you fight for us Lord, Stand by our sides and deliver us from the enemie's opposition. May we carry your presence with us wherever we go.
In Jesus' name i pray, Amen.


This week has really been tough.
But once again, the Lord has rescued me.

The girls have faced opposition from their families to come to church once again. I already lost one of them. and my heart aches non-stop. The rest are plainly dejected and upset. I can't do this all alone and once again I learnt that only God can fight this battle for me.

Saturday, a car reverse and banged Jeff's car. I was at the left hand side of the driver. If Jeff had not reverse fast enough, I would be hurt. Thank God for his mercy on me.
And when i reached church for cell-group, issues arised during cell group. It was so painful for me to handle but yet God gave me the strength and courage to carry on leading the group.
Then after the prayer meeting, I had major muscle cramps at my spinal area.
I did not go for service today because of my back. Thank God, the muscle cramps had subsided and I'm okay again.

I really do not know if all these are really Spiritual Attacks. The only thing I know is that as long as I put on the armor of God and hold the shield of faith with the sword of the Word, the enemy will flee.

now, even as I type this blog, I feel rather dejected but yet I know that my God is a Great God. He'll deliver me from my fears and from all the difficult situations that are awaiting for me to resolve. Crying does not solve anything now. only prayers do.


p.s ina, i'm glad you're encouraged. hope to meet up with you, but i'm really busy. sorry that i have not smsed you when your dad was hospitalised. It's not that I didn't bother, I was really caught up. then u left for korea, and i forgot all about that! But i'm glad you're back already safe and sound (: really hope to meet you soon but it seems like i'm SO SO SO SO Packed. btw, I want to go for guitar lessons with you. I was hoping to be able to play my guitar properly for my wedding and also worship for cell group ah! haha.
SMS ME OK!? I love you lots lots.