Gracious Father, i pray that tonight even without sleep i'll be able to complete my work with alertness and to do my best for everything. Father, i pray my communication skills presentation slides and speech draft will be done nicely. and tmr's rehearsal for presentation will be good. I pray that i'll be able to prepare for my UIR presentation though i really dislike that module. and i also would like to pray for my CSAD assignment. that i may do well for it. especially when i am really stuck now. Father, i pray that you bless me with wisdom and understanding as i face this three things that i must do tonight. thankyou Jesus. Amen.

nice to start my post with a prayer isn't it? (((:

i went swimming today! with ina. hahas. it was so so nice and fun. (((:

next wed is badminton. SEAN; if you wanna jog please sms me. i will come too. ina and i are kind determined to shed off the excess fats on us. get what we mean? we'll dedicate our weds to sports. hahas. maybe during hols, we can meet up often to do some sports.

i deposited money into my bank today. feeling richer recently. hahas.

i miss boyfriend very very much. i had a great day out with him yesterday. i mean after so long, we never really go out. so we went IMM to do my shopping yesterday. the ESPIRIT outlet is good. and cheap too. got my clothes there. kinda have the desire to wear the clothes out immediately. but NO.. its for newyear.

i love the shoes he bought for me. i wanted to pay for it myself. but he insisted. and since he never really bought me a present, i relented. haha. so; the shoes, happen to be my valentine's persent.

haha. and since he NEVER reads my blog, it is okay to post it here. FOR valentine 2007, my 5th month with Jeffrey will be very special. hahas.

this the first time i went to that extent to get the gifts done.

handmade A4 size note. some have seen how it looks like. and i received the nods. haha. its cool. then CROCS specially bought for his work. i know he has been dying for it. and i've been saving madly. and lastly, cookies and cupcakes! hahas.

its like i've never ever bothered to do so much for a guy. but a special guy like him, just makes me want to do more and more. anything for him. that's my love.

im dying to buy the diva necklace. its a heartshape pendant. that costs 16 bucks.

and yah. i'll go next week to get it! im so in love with that necklace. and when i miss that necklace back here. means i really want it. so i should get it! rightright?!

haha. okay. i'll have to start doing my work. COFFEE in the night! sigh. endless projects. it is impossible with man. but it is possible with God! AMEN.

i totally agree. its from Matthews smth. can't remember. ))):

okay! gotta go.

before that pictures!

tell me im vain. haha. i love taking pictues. ((:

jeffrey and his dog. i kind like that dog like. huggable. nice and comfy. haha.

me. stephanie. lynette. taken during lynette's birthday! (((: loveloves.

sigh. where's teddy. TELLME.

being ignored for very very long le. hahas.
i miss him so much.

i tell you i went bonkaz just now doing my csad only! ))):
SIGH. it is just so difficult )):

and im just complaining here!
bye.

spent the entire saturday with ina doing CSAD.

hahas. my title tells it all. spent the entire afternoon doing CSAD. gosh. im really exhausted. and i still can't get my data grid view to work properly. i spent five hours trying to figure out and i still don't get it. my brain cells are dead already.

and oh. how i miss boyfriend so much. didn't see him for two days already. okay. i know its only 2 days! hahas.
yesterday i left school around 8pm. and i completed my SWEN! hurrays.
im left with two hours before i have to go meet jeffrey soon.
so im gonna quickly finish up my final draft for creative writing that is due on tues.
because monday. im going to TM to see my idols ! lols . hana kimi cast..

im so excited bout it. haha. i believe most of us are. haha.
GIRLS ! -.-

hahahas. loveloves
BYE

recording test data for SWEN isn't easy at all. i have to admit.
its 6.41pm and i am still in school recording scripts after scripts. i have been in the lab since 3pm trying to record. the whole 11am-2pm i have been doing my programming assignment.

this is what i mean by from morning to night doing assignment all day.
but im glad. God has been really Faithful to me. providing me with a school com with the software when others are struggling to look for lab. you've no idea how grateful i really am. Praise the Lord. ((:

well. im basically very tired. when i get home, i'll hve to try to complete my creative writing. so that i may continue doing my programming assignment. sigh database connection and stuff.. my life. pathetic. but well. i'll learn to treasure it. i promise.

im very thankful to jeffrey. because he gave me a verse from the bible. that really serves as another reminder. and letting me know, that im not alone.

amazing how God love is. really.
i gotta get back to doing my work. bye.

it is because of all the piling projects that must be cleared by next week.

is that the answer to why im feeling depressed? letme see.
i shall list out what needs to be done.

monday 29.01.2007
swen test case and test data submission (recording of scripts not done yet.)

tuesday 30.01.2007
creative writing final draft. (needs to be edited again)

friday 2.02.2007
communication skills presentation powerpoint and draft to be modified.
CSAD programming assignment due. inclusive of reports and soft copy of codes.
GC briefing to be attended
UIR presentation

monday 5.02.2007
wbat application to be done and submitted.

tuesday 6.02.2007
creative writing to be submitted - storybook with cover to be design.

monday 12.02.2007
business finance final test.

thursday 15.02.2007
cmsk3 presentation (formal wear)

now, now. can you understand? i do projects after projects. hours after hours. can you imagine sitting in school from 9am - 7pm doing projects. and when you get home, you still continue doing projects till the wee hours of the night?

i know everyone faces the same thing. but im especially tired. my workload is far too heavy for me to handle. and i feel like going mad. and most of the time; i actually break down into tears. although you all may not see it. but i feel really tired and weary of everything that is going on.

enough of my jokes. my laughter for you all. because i am simply too tired to make everyone happy.

that's all
loves

like a baby; cry when you need to. laugh when you feel happy.

i don't know what got into me lately.

tired.
sigh.

forget it.

bye.

i have been too caught up with the struggles in life. and i had pay no attention to the surrounding people and my initial goal; to leave heartprints with everyone i see.

life has been fairly bearable.
i give thanks for the wonderful people around me. because they really care. and the prayers they've kept me in.
choir has been fruitful. the songs. the worship. fantastic i tell you.

i read ina's blog. about how she envy me because i can share so easily. it wasn't easy ina. it takes a lot to share. but over years, the more you keep the emotions in yourself, the more you need to share. Im willing to listen only if your willing to share.

yah. ((:
yea. and valentine's is coming around the corner! i remember those times in secondary school when we give each other roses and presents. well; a moment that i can never forget. but all good things come to an end. hmm. maybe.

i finish the special item i made for jeffrey. and its kinda cool. hahas. thanks to TP bookshop. i found some good materials. haha.

i had to show my tutor about A child's story. it wasn't positive. i felt really depressed. i meant 2 times already. i put in my effort. put in so much effort. and BAM. it just turn out this way. sigh. im not gonna give up though. but im really struggling. i prolly ain't cut out to write stories.
difficulties to overcome! sigh.

i miss my boyfriend. you know. you know?!
loveloves.

thanks yemin for burning the cd for me! hahas.
love it . (((:

today school was i-don't-know what to say. friday always seem to be very bad. sigh. because there's UIR and then CSAD. my two more irritating module in my dictionary. ))):

i feel really moody today. i've no idea why. maybe i shud just return home to get some sleep. truely need the sleep.
tmr there's a long day waiting for me. hmm.

im getting my test results for CSAD soon. i already know i fail. so i don't have much expectations already. life is getting even more and more boring for me. im beginning to start feeling that i've no life. but YIKES. ))):

i miss going out with ina; girls day out! i learnt smth from highquest.
that whenever you feel like escaping from the world, no matter where you run to, God's presence is always there with you. you cannot hide from Him. yes, you can hide from the world, but not God.
i feel so comforted by this. because there are so many times, i really feel like hidding away in my own shell. i feel like just crying and sleep and ignore everyone. but most of the times, because i know God is always there. so i wipe away my tear. and smile and pick up myself and face the world.

this is how real God is to me. He is really so faithful.
((((:
im glad to know that there are so many people who cares. really glad.

i was just telling lynette in the lab. how fragile relationships can be. you never know when you will just lose hold of someone so important to you. and to me, i find it even more scarier. because i've lost too many before. and im very afraid. but not many people can tell that im really afraid. the strong personality, the smiley face that i put up infront of everyone.

only a few will really know. i am so afraid. so. God i pray, that i'll never lose anyone impt from my life again. Amen.

okay. enough of ranting. haha. some random post of the day. bleah.
i wanna go home and sleep!
loveloves.

have you heard of Don Moen's version of We are the reason?

watch it.


i have been searching for worship videos. and i tell you its fantastic.
worshipping is really great.

(((:

i had a great time in school today. CMSK was very funny. a lot of jokes. think Steph enjoyed it more because of all the nonsense i was talking about. haha. i never fail to make them LAUGH okay! what a good entertainer i am!
hahas.

today i applied at the MOE website. for relief teaching. guess what i am teaching? CHINESE! hahas. ina will be like " WHAT" i can imagine! hahas.

bleah.
friday!! i dislike going for UIR class. and i've a feeling i already failed the attendance requirement. crosses finger ))):
well. i'll start going for class.
haha. the only thing im prolly looking forward to. is because i gonna see him! hahas.
((:

byeee.

i want to blog seriously. because i need to pen down thoughts. or i might never be able to find out what is wrong with myself. so. ignore my post.
yah. pretend you didn't see anything. *points to INA.* xD

i had an extreme conversation yesterday. things may be harsh. but i know its the truth. i cried non-stop. because i had no idea what i've been doing. i have not been myself. i have hidden myself. my dark side from you. i knew i had to say it someday. but i struggled most of the time.

now that you know. you dont seem to understand. i am so afraid. i feel like leaning on ina and start crying again. I don't know why everytime i am so afraid. fearful of losing. i'll cling on to ina. i am really scared. i don't know how to explain that sorta feeling in me now.

who can really understand the situation i am in? if you were me, what will you do huh? will you move on bravely, or like me? getting stuck. i know you'll say move on bravely. but hey. i say that all the time too. i'll move on. but you know what happens. like what you said. somethings you expect will not turn out the way u expect it to be. and prolly you'll get stuck too.

i don't like the way you make it sound as if everything is so simple. because if it was simple. i would have got over it. actually its over already. i think this the last time im gonna address that issue. before the book is out.

im doing everything not for the people to see. but for God.
i somehow just sense that God is wanting me to write the book. He planned everything from the beginning to use me. He wants to use me, to use my past and bring people back to Him. He wants me to be a living testimony of His works in me. and i'll continue working at it.
but still, i thank you for the support you are willing to give me. although you still do not understand why i am doing all this

its ok. oh btw, this post is not meant for u. its for me( that is if you ever come across this post.)

seriously, i felt really hurt yesterday. not by the words you say. but i regretted not sharing with you earlier. i regretted from hiding myself from you. i am so sorry. SIGH

yesterday. i felt as if i had dropped into a dark pit. i never wanted to show you my weakness. and now i had. i feel pain. because you've seen through me. you've seen the kind of person i am. i feel shameful of myself. and i feel guilt.
i don't know what i can do now. im gonna pray very hard. im gonna seek God these few days when i am not going to be meeting you. i seriously need time to sort out a lot of emotions. then start writing the book again. for now, i'll just leave the story where it is. until i get a confirmed answer from God that i should really continue writing.

i have lost my appetite for days. i really have no more energy to care about the rest of the stuff. but at least God is really faithful. my mother gave me allowance for this whole week. so praise the Lord!

and keep me in prayers dear friends.
special thanks to CL for covering me in prayer.
(((:

takecare.
loves.

A child's story - 30% completed.
im at chapter three already.
it takes really a lot to write this story. oh well.

i slept quite long in the afternoon today. hahas. i had nothing to do. i know i know. there's plenty of projects to do. but im slacking. oh well )))):
sigh.

im having mixed up feelings now.
btw, Hana Kimi is really nice to watch. hahahas. im falling in love with it.(((:
LOL.

im only ranting here. BYE

im spending the next few days writing a story for creative writing.
after writing two chapters, i realised my story is basically like "a child called it" my story will be a true story bout my own life. the broken promises. the broken hearts. rage. hatred.
it is a story that shows every single event that really happened.
the story's title will be. The child's story.

fantastic. not exactly. each time i try writing. i go back to the past. and its as if i am on a journey back. and when i come back to reality. i feel my heart aching so much. each time. more&more. yes i admit im becoming more and more emo.
somehow as emo as i get. i still hold on strongly. i'll never admit defeat.
God has been here with me all along. although i feel the pain, when i look up. i feel the warmth of God's hands. He has been there all along.

so i'll still continue writing this story. because i want to give thanks for the life i've been through. and i want to share. i am always better at expressing when i write. and after i finish the story. the first person i would pass my story to is my boyfriend.
i realised i have hide too much. too much stuff that need to be told. but not sure when. so this time. i will. i promise.

byeee.
loves.

i've not blog for so long.
been so busy.

choir.chin's birthday. creative writing presentation. hur. plenty of stuff.

well. SWEN results !! 34/50. sigh. quite low actually. but nvm lah. (((:

joyce's birthday today! (((: happy birthday my dear sister. hahas. joyce is my boyfriend's sister. so yah. in-case you were wondering.
and bleah. im so stuck now.
i need a new job. gonna really pray that God shows me a way. by the end of next week, if i still can't get a job. yea i'll work at macs. i know everyone's telling me the pay is pretty low. but well, it beats sitting around not being able to find a proper job right?

i'll ring nicole up tmr. and ask whether she has any part-time job on hand. ((:
i feel really poor now. lols. lots of family issues happening.
but on the brighter side. my brother bought me a laptop! hahas. that really really cheered me up a lot.

sigh. recently i've been thinking a lot. it seems that i've been going through quite a lot. and i feel that God wants me to really face a lot of reality. and not just pretend and deny that there is nothing wrong with me. and that all these happens for a reason. i know i've to do something about it. prayers. surrendering it all to God. well. give me time. okay?

yea. i had a lot of sharing today. particularly with lynette and ina. and i am really glad i have great friends around me. where we can share with each other. really appreciate them a lot. really hope that lynette will turn to Christ soon. yah. i have faith in God. that one day she'll really come to accept Him with all her heart. (((:

i am gonna stop here. tmr is a long day. programming and cmsk. well, i can say im looking forward to WBAT. (((: loveloves.

byeeee.

sigh. im in school lab now.
slept at four am in the morning. did my assignments from 10pm till 4am. 6 amazing long hours. really want to thank God that i am able to complete everything by today.

and for sending people along the way to help me with my coding. really grateful.
right now. im exhausted. and pissed off. and frustrated at some particular reason.
im probably too tired thats why im very pissy.

i feel like fainting now due to exhaustion. i've a feeling i might just drop dead on the floor. sigh.
i need my bed. need my sleep.
need my boy the most. but he's busy now.

listen to my rantings. sigh. im tired . bye.
)))):

projects. projects & more projects.

i've tried starting on csad. i mean my group is done with the G.U.I and all. but then the coding. i really don't understand how to do? I have alot of retrieving from the db. SIGH.

I am waiting for lynette to be back from Taiwan. so that i have at least an idea on how to start. SIGH.
and then the fyp proposal. I need them also. Because we are in the same group
there are really much thing to be done. and the hols are almost over.
I really haven't been pushing myself hard enough.

Im sick now. i fell sick again! after six months. lols. its somehow. like finally? LOLs.
im only blogging a short entry.
hahhaas. bleah.
that boy is busy again. nvm. me too. lols

byeeee.

why am i so negative in my recent entries? i cannot understand the reason why.
im truely very tired.
im truely afraid of trying.
i truely hate this feeling.
and who can understand what i am going through?

you may show me facts that others are suffering more.
but can you lend a listening ear to me instead of telling me?
can you listen for once to my pains.

can you help me ease the missing of someone?
can you help me?

three consecutive days. i have been holding on to this burden in me. leting my tears flow endlessly. yet i have been puting up such a brave front. But deep within. i know how much i may not be able to take it anymore.
i held on. when i heard the sermon on Sunday. i was so touched.
and i want to work even harder but it is so difficult.

i am beginning to hate. to have anger in me. and i hate this kind of feeling in me.

Father, would you help me get pass all these?

can i not look at my mother anymore.
can i be wilful and lead my own life the way i want?
can i stop trying to please every single one around me? I AM TIRED OF PLEASING ALMOST EVERYONE. IM TIRED OF BEING SOMEONE that is weak.

show me the way out. even if there is no one for me to really lean on. can i lean on you? i just need some assurance once more. how to set my heart right again? how do i set my heart right for you and the people around me again ?

how do i stop being negative. and just smile happily?

to be really honest, no matter how much i try to deny. to live in denial, the reality is always there. no matter how much i try to tell myself, my past is NOTHING. but the reality shows it all.

i'll take some time off to be by myself. and set my heart right for everyone.
bye.

Dear Gracious Father,
today is christmas. but i am in an unpeaceful state. i feel the rage in me. i feel the need to pour out everything. i feel the tears in my eyes. i want to be happy during christmas. Because Jesus is born to save me. save the world. but why do i feel such resentment and bitterness in me. Why is it that i feel no one is around to talk to me? why do i sense loneliness in my heart?
this christmas, all i want is a good relationship with my mother. because of the war that is waging in me, i have no peace. Father, please take away all these bitterness in me. that i may be strong and fulfill my mother's expectation of a wonderful daughter.
in Jesus's name i pray, Amen.


i know its christmas. i know i sound really down. crying&all. but i feel really bad inside.
i love my mother. But because i love her; the things that she says become smth that really pierce my heart so much. I don't mind doing the housework. But she gotta understand that i have plenty of work to do. I don't go out and play all the time. I have school. I have a part-time job. i feel like running away from home.

im hurt. im tired. im in pain.
so Jesus, take all these away from me.
SIGH.

relationships are the most fragile things in the world.
but. im not gonna escape from all these obstacles. im gonna walk through it. because i have faith in God. He'll pull me through everything!

okay. christmas outreach was fantastic last night. Simon came. and i am so proud of him. that he finally made the first step back. and im really glad he enjoyed the whole outreach.
He said all of us are friendly and really nice people. hurray shalom!
(((:
im glad.

hahas.
i won't go into details. because im tired.
and ina. im not gonna explain bout what happen when i was blindfolded. HAHA. byeeee.

How can i leave you when i've fallen so deeply in love with you.
i'll never leave you. because you are my everything. God-sent. a gift from God to me. you are fantastic. the right guy that i ever want. your my most precious gift. the best christmas gift i could ever had. you never fail to make me smile. you never fail to make me feel love. because of you; i can smile by my own so foolishly. but also because of you; i enjoy smiling so much. you make my heart melt all the time. even when we seem so far apart and don't have much time together, i still feel your love always and always. our hearts can feel each other's. ((((: i love you baby.

hmm.
today i met ina. went to bugis together. i bought a "jumper" that i am not so in love with. haha. but then again. it prolly looks nice. i don't know. and i guess it was a wrong decision. i spent 80 bucks in a day. but i don't remember exactly how. :x i returned ina money. bought the christmas present for cell. had lunch. top up my farecard and bought that jumper.

hmm. money come, money goes. but its okay. money can be earned again. but now. cellgroup dinner money HOW ?! hahahs. next week im gonna work again and get my PAY. hahas.
Simon off his handphone. SIGH. i pray hard that he'll come for christmas outreach tmr. SIGH. you better come!

i miss my boy. so much. right now.
hahas. the thought bout him always make me smile. lovelovelove.

hahas. tmr ina and peilee gonna get baptized! hahas. i'll be going for 1st service.hmm.
ina.
2nd baptism; any thoughts or comments ? lols . letmme hear it. (((:
monday is christmas; but i'll be spending that day to complete cmsk report and journal writing or maybe swen requirements specs. then tues - fri will be spent on coding CSAD. sigh. its a dread. :((((
but i can do it! hahahas.

im gonna stop blogging. need to catcvh some sleep. though i don't feel like sleeping yet. but i have to sleep 8 hours or not. i'll be so moody. hahahas.
takecare. (((:
loveloves.

and

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO EVERYONE(((:
REMEMBER JESUS ALWAYS.
AND HAVE A GREAT CHRISTMAS THIS YEAR. OHKAY?!

LOVES

give thanks for the christmas season (:

Give thanks with a grateful heart
Give thanks unto the Holy One
Give thanks because
He's given Jesus Christ, His Son
(repeat)

And now let the weak say, 'I am strong'
Let the poor say, 'I am rich
Because of what the Lord has done for us'
(repeat)

a song that touches my heart. and makes me want to just continue giving thanks for every single event that happened in my life.
so what are you waiting for? give thanks (:

i am feeling very sick now as im blogging. sigh. i pray that God will protect me and not let me fall even more sick. have to work tmr. and christmas is around the corner.

the year is coming to the end, how will you rate your whole year then ?

A-Very Good, B-Good enough, C-just the same, D-lousier than ever.

for me, i'll rate it A-Very Good. This has been the most eventful year. The year which i have felt the most extreme ups and downs. the year which i have seen myself nurtured and grown.
God's presence in my life made me changed from the inside out.
Will you people who i once knew be surprised to see the change in me? or would you all still say its all an act? well. i guess it doesn't matter anymore.

In the first half year. I have been neither here nor there. Everything seem to be stuck, like a tape not being able to play. But when i finally could move on, the tape started playing really smoothly. that is because God has came into my life again. This time He came in, differently like the previous. All these events, made everything that had happened seem to be with a purpose. A purpose to make me come back to God wholeheartedly, with my own will.

i remember that moment when i ended it all; i picked up the phone and dialled ina's number. i said. "Ina, i want to come back church." with just this sentence that came out of my mouth, the Holy Spirit had started working in me once more.
The extreme downs that i had been through are blessings in disguise. that i can boldly speak of now.

I love to reflect on what has happened in my life. Because through these reflections, i come to know more about my self.
For the first six months , i have been selfish, materialistic, hot-tempered, with hatred in my heart. I have been the worse person anyone could have met.
But for the next six months, i have been the total opposite from what i have been before. from materialism, i have become in a way, that i care for no more riches. no more nice clothes, no more popularity. all these seem to have been taken away by God. i have been forgiving and patient. and i have never been like that before.
I have forgived the people i needed to forgive. I have learnt to curb my temper.

God has been reminding me once and once again, to humble myself. Especially when i am serving in Choir. It takes alot of effort to really humble yourself. When i meet annoying people, the usual me will tend to just ignore and speak behind that person's back. I confess, i still do that nowadays. but rarely. even so, i still need to learn. to change.

I am proud of the way i have change with God's strength. And suddenly i remember telling Perline this: "you cannot change your character yourself, only with God's strength and power then you'll be able to change." I don't know to others, is this true. But to me, i felt this way. one year back then, i had a group of people around me who kept telling me to change. "Qiqi, you must change." everywhere i went, people told me my attitude was bad. people told me they didn't like me at times. because i am selfish.

Back then, i kept asking myself. What have i done wrong? what do i need to change. I tried my best. I tried to change. I spoke lesser. I didn't make the decisions anymore. I let the others do. I gave in again and again. Until one day i broke down and cried " i can't change! i can't "
and i left things dangling on that way.

When i have came back to church. I did not need to tell myself I want to change. I did not try to change. But God changed me. Through the scriptures, through people, through the sermon. God changed my heart deep from within. I could no longer find myself flaring up. I could no longer find myself having hatred in me. I could no longer tick off people when ever i want.
Praise God.

The way God has work in me, others may not see. But i see it. and i feel it. i remember jeffrey and i were talking bout personalities. Each bird represent a different personality. When he told me i was a dove. I was really amazed.
Me a dove ? How can it be. But i realised personality do change. And i have changed.

From the mouth that curses all day, my mouth now sing praises of the Lord. And determined not to curse anymore. How can i give my testimony to people around me?
How can i teach people to trust God in the hard times?
How can i relate to everyone using my past? i have fell down and down many many times, But i always have the most amazing people beside me who pull me up. No matter, how deep i fell in, how hard i fell, i always manage to pick myself up.

No doubt. Whenever i start dwelling in the past, the pain comes in. I still cry. I still tell God, i want to see them so much. I want my parents, my family back. I tell God i envy families. I tell God this is not fair. Why must i go through so much, when most can just lead their life normally? I cry out all the time to God. But each time i cry out, God reassure me. Each time, i feel a certain tingle in my heart. A warmth that slowly fills my body. A love that feels the emptiness. And the words will ring in my heart " God loves u."

God is good all the time. And all the time God is good. This i must really say Amen to.
I have never felt God so strongly than ever until this year. I have never experienced God's love as much until this year. I have never prayed that much. have never worshipped that much. have never did my QT that much until this year.
i feel so loved, so wanted in God's arms now.
He gave me the boy that i needed most when i felt like giving up. I asked God, when will i ever experienced the love that i always wanted. And true enough. I met him. I met him, but i was still in doubt. I ask God again, are you sure? he is the one for me? I prayed for a sign.

God showed me the sign. Perline and Lynette said before " How can two people come together, meet in church, love at first sight. and they are both christians? Isn't this God-planned?"
When i think bout this, i smile. I jump for joy. and i exclaim. Thankyou Father for this precious gift You have blessed me with!

Each time i reach out to people, the Holy Spirit works in me non-stop. Amazing words flow out from my mouth. To comfort them. To also remind them that God is always here. And each time a broken heart is in front of me, i feel God calling out to me, go speak to them. They need a listening ear. And i'll just reach out my hand to them.

enough of the reflections. my resolution for year 2007? hmm.

i have just signed up as a volunteer for children's society.
It always had been my dream to help the abandoned children. I have been through what they have gone through. And this time i am able to really give my all and all.
I want to serve God more.
I want to leave heartprints.
I want to have a closer relationship with God.
I want to grow spiritually to a higher level.

i give thanks for the wonderful calling back to Christ.
i give thanks that it is God's calling for me serve in choir.
i give thanks for jeffrey.
i give thanks for Ina who always stood by me.
i give thanks for the wonderful cellgroup.
i give thanks for lynette, perline and stephanie.
i give thanks for the improvement in grades this semester.
i give thanks for the change in my heart.
i give thanks for all the wonderful events that has happened.

And indeed. God is great. He our gracious Father!

thats the end of my entry today. long one (:
loves.