school reopen. goodbyes to the holidays.

i've been thinking to myself. look at those people who have major project stress. look at my group and our project. are we just going to get a normal D or C grade ? i really have no idea ): so depressing but nevertheless i really want to do my best. to shine for God! (:

stayed up last night. ok didn't really stay up, till 2am only. but at least i spent 3 hours working on smth ok! haha. and since i start school at 4pm today, so i decided to go sleep.
and im kind of proud of the work i've done.

so highquest is over. and now, im starting on my daily bread highquest format. its really good. like today i did psalm 55. about king david's friend betrayal. and how he turned to seek God for comfort. and did not run away from the problem infront of him. Us - normal human being, would always run away from our problems and not dare to face it. But in Psalm 55, King David told God that he trusts in God. And that even when his enemy insults him, he could endure it. Even if his enemy rise up against him, he could hide from his enemy. and this are all because he knows God will help him. because his trust is in the one and only God.
what a good passage given to me today early in the morning! because it really taught me that i should not keep God at the last option in terms of trouble. i should just go directly to him. Even if its frustrations to be vented, anger, blaming, God can take all of it. because none of this will harm him! this is just so amazing God really is. He cares for me, for you, for everyone!


I've decided to dedicate my blog to God. every good thing given, i'll give thanks and praise Him for it, and i want to write everything here to show people about how great God really is (:
praise him forever and ever.


(:
im working three days in a row. wheees. hope wed will be my last day of work. haha. i need to get down to studying already (:
loveloves.

p.s i love jeffrey aw (:

spent the night with my love (: its been amazing how i can just feel so comfortable with you polar. i can spent the whole entire night yanking away bout almost everything (: i am so in love with you. but most of all, God taught me how to love first. so thank God.

i learnt that i should thank God for everything that i've in my life. that i am blessed!

today, i found my motivation back. on the way home, as polar was riding along the highway, i was giving thanks to God. for everything he has provided me with. provided me a place in TP to study. and then i thought bout what polar has told me. i thought about how i should really do my best irregardless of what. in choir, or in studies. i should always do my best for God. and i asked God, "is it too late now to start studying madly again? is it too late to want to do my best for this semester." i know deep in my heart that everything can be made possible with God. so my prayer now is that i'll do my very best, and God will show me favor that i'll shine with my results. and so, i know i'll shine. first in my results, then in choir. strive hard and do my best. (:
i really give thanks for the conversation with my love. (: God is awesome!

God is really awesome in my life. life's been amazing. i want to see another miracle in my studies. in my studies now, in NIE (if its God's will for me), in choir. i need to see a breakthrough (: just like how i saw a breakthrough in my prayer life .

thank God. really thank God.

our God is the everlasting God! (:

loveloves

p.s im running out of HQ to do . ran out of devotionals. SAVE ME. will any kind soul please give me a new devotional. i'll love you (: hahaa *hint hint*

i haven't blogged since camp.
maybe its because i've been penning thoughts down in a more private place. like my note book (:
i suddenly have the habit of penning down thoughts when and as i feel like it. and i don't have to go on my lap top and connect to the internet before i can pen down stuff you know.

i just read esther's blog. because she told me to! haha. its really heartwarming to read all the thankyou and know that i am appreciated. i think its really true. you have to express your gratitude and appreciation of a person. and not keep it in you, so that the person will feel appreciated. haha. really.

friendship blossomed. between Esther & i. i thank God for allowing this friendship to blossom. for teaching me how to treasure. i remember once, back then. people said i always take friends for granted. back then, i often wondered and asked God, is that true? but now, i know im never the same before. God really changed me.

almost one week has passed after camp is over. i began to see that i've changed. in my notebook, i wrote this particular phrase, "God changed me, camp changed me" Normally, you would feel that camp is supposed to change lives of the campers. but never would you ever expect that the camp had changed the live of me, a camp comm member who labours for God, and serve the campers wholeheartedly.

i really have changed. thank God. prayers has just became part of me recently. it has been just so heartwarming to know that, my prayers; the smallest ones are actually answered. it all comes with believing and having faith. you just got to believe that God is powerful, God is almighty, you just have to believe that things will turn out well. its all about the word BELIEVE!

i was just telling Esther the other day at work that, when God disciplines his children by giving them hardships, the process is indeed so painful, but the aftertaste of it is just so sweet. so so sweet. that you just draw closer to God, and you want him more and more each day. Only when it came to the last session of HQ, then i really learnt to appreciate doing HQ, appreciate reading the word. and each day, im filled with joy. yes! the joy of the Lord is our strength! AMEN to that.


what an interesting holiday. what a fruitful holiday. a holiday when i managed to draw closer to my heavenly king. thank God for everything that has happened. thank God for changing me.
praises to God forever and ever.

Matthew 5:16
In the same way, let your light shine before men, that they may see your good deeds and praise your Father in heaven.


im finally back from camp. a really long 5 days 4 nights. seriously, i think as i get older, i prefer to stay at home. i am no more that kid who loves to go camp. haha.
i think i learnt a lot from camp. i learnt my part in camp as an admin. i learnt how to really communicate. i learnt that prayers are really important and many others. i also came to learnt about myself. the flaws and the strengths.

day 0 - leader's day
leader's day were very slack. only the moving of the logistics was a bit tiring. well, i didn't move much lah. but was practically running around. haha. but then later on in the day was really slack. hmm. but then, there were a few hiccups with food. with me and food i/c. ):
and jeff fell sick. i wasn't worried at first, thinking it was a slight flu. but i was so so wrong ):

day 1
i went back to church with feli & robyn to get the campers. there were a few hiccups too. missed out a lot of names in the registration list. i felt that i didn't do a great job. infact, i was beginning to feel like a loser. but then i decided to push the negative thoughts aside, and do what i can. so, i reached back the campsite. it seemed like the campers felt really welcomed by the leaders. and it was great! i travelled alot today. because i had to get stuff for the food and the packed lunch & dinner from jeff's mom. well, but because of this, there were further unhappiness ): but im glad that the campers enjoyed their first day. the game pirates of PLMGS was fun. i get to bomb the groups though i was an NPC. but it was really fun.

at this point of time, jeffrey was already having a fever. i prayed for him. seeing him in that state makes my heart ache a lot. i had no idea what to do. but still i kept praying.
soon after i left to collect dinner, jeff left the campsite to go home. i came back to the campsite with ling yang (herbal tea) but he already left. that was sad. but nvm, i prayed that he'll get a good rest.

the game prison break was really funny. although my heart was really worried for jeffrey, i know i had to be strong in camp. for the campers, i still had to be happy. it was a struggle. but i tried my best. and i know i really did my best in being happy. walking around, taking photos, spending time in the torture chamber lifted my spirits a little higher.
by the time, we had to go back to our bunks to rest, it was already 1am+. As i started praying to God for an assurance. i came upon this verse.
Isaiah 40:11
He tends his flock like a shepherd; He gathers the lambs in his arms and carries them close to his heart; he gently leads those that have young.
In my heart after reading this verse, i told God, i know he'll carry me through, he'll carry jeffrey through. i cried and went to bed.

day 2
i woke up in the morning shocked. i received a sms that jeff went to a&e last night, and may be suspected of Dengue. I showed Esther the msg. and she prayed. i know i cried a lot in the morning. i just kept crying non-stop. every part of me was tired. the more i prayed, the worsen jeff's condition got. i had no idea why. my faith was even smaller than a mustard seed at that point of time. after crying i had to go down and join the campers. i tried to be strong. but i guess it was really written on my face, that im plain worried though i really tried my best to smile.
tears were constantly in my eyes. but there was nothing i can do. i just wanted to rush to his side and keep him accompany. but then i cldn't leave my duties in camp.

during worship and workshop, i could not worship at all. because i felt angry. i asked God why, why he allowed such things to happen? i ask God why no matter how much i pray, nothing turns for the better. i kept tearing. when the campers prayed for jeffrey in their own groups of 2 & 3s, i was touched by their sincerity. and later on, when ______ (i forgot who) started to lead in prayer for jeffrey, i just kept crying because i couldn't control anymore. and darren asked me whether i want to go visit jeffrey. he can send me there.
After thinking for a few minutes. i still decided to go. so i went. darren drove me there.
Seeing him, makes me a little comforted though he was still feeling very sick. ): i continued to pray and pray. and i left around 2pm after he slept. and headed to fort canning for the rest of the games.

played hop-scotch with ina, while waiting for the groups to find us. we were station masters (:
well, it was a really good game with ina, because after perspiring, my spirits were high.
but it slowly died out when there were more conflicts. i cried. and cried non-stop. felicia came to talk to me. slowly, i let things out. from what happened since day 0 till now. how much i've tried to be strong. how i felt God has abandoned me. how much i really didn't dare to pray anymore. after talking to her, i sat at the grand stand alone under the sky of stars, in the dark, alone with God and no one else.

I asked God, why? why have you not done anything? i kept crying so much. why is my faith so little i asked God? as i began to ask him, i began to recount 2 events that touched my heart. i remembered on the taxi to fort canning after visiting jeff, i prayed. i ask God why is there no miracle ? no matter how much i prayed? i closed my eyes and rested for awhile, a song on the radio started to play. the song prince of peace. the chorus goes, "there are miracles when you believe" i started to ask myself, when i believe? the next moment when i was back in school, and when i was going to step into the AVA room, i heard a camper tellling her group, "We believe in miracles."

As i sat and the grandstand thinking about believing with all my heart. i heard a voice asking me, "do you really believe? do you believe in me?" i started to cry again in desperation. i told God, i believe. i believe your works. I do believe!

and guess what? the next moment, i asked juliana to call home and ask about jeff, his mom said his fever has already subsided. immediately i thank God. i thank God for his miracles. i thank God for the lesson he made me go through. I thank God for his healing powers. and i was overjoyed.

day 3
Jeffrey came back to camp! he sent me the happiest smses in the morning. i was practically grinning wherever i went. i was just so happy. i think i learnt a lot the past few days. and God has definitely changed me in my prayers, in my faith.
had a few fun games. but then there were an increase in injuries and ill people. then tension started to rise among the committee and helpers. i started to realise that we had not prayed enough for the campers! and so i retreated and went to pray.
and true enough, there were no more injuries anymore. but it was really quite late to pray also being this was the last night.
this was the first time i ever prayed sincerely with love for every single camper,leaders and committee members. i really felt God's peace in my heart.

day 4.
im happy today. because i finally get to go home. i really wanted to go home. dying to go home. hahaa. then we headed back to church. and had a debrief. a long debrief but a good one.

end of camp (:

i have to apologise to Esther. i had not know of the budget and did not check properly. so im really sorry to said that you have overspent. and there were a lot of conflicts between both of us. i admit i was really upset. because i really do treat you as a good friend. and when things happen, i felt upset. i wondered about what i should do, how i should react. but many times in camp, you were also my encouragement. sharing with me many things. and i really thankyou.

yepp. and also thanks to felicia who also spoke to me. who encouraged me at the grandstand. thank you for the words that woke me up.

overall, i left camp with a good experience with God. thankyou camp committees for putting in so much effort (:
i love all of you.

loves.

pictures blast (: ikea (: aaron as the photographer. haha.
GELARE (: while waiting to start work, ina came to visit. and we started snapping.

my new hair color (: ina did it for me. loves
YC overnight event; the hunt. jeffrey and i as station master (: loves


actually i've a lot of overdue pictures. but i am very lazy to upload all. haha.
camp is just in 2 days now. haha. and im really excited already. loves.

i don't really know what to blog about. but just to update you all. God is great (: and im doing great. although it wasn't really smooth for a few days. but things just got better and better.

loves.

im unreasonably upset.

i've experience the down for 4 days in a row. and it has already demoralized me from deep within.

i wonder how long more can i withstand. God, just how long more? you answered my prayer. twice. you shown me the sign 2 times. and Lord, how can i say no? i said yes. i'll follow. but i've been hurt again and again. what is your plan for me Lord? to strengthened me somemore? sigh.


im going to be home all day. and spend some time with myself, with God. going jogging later in the evening. hopefully God will help me think properly. (:
ok.

i want to go study ecsa (:
loves.

i got photos from the past few days (:

but oh well, blogger is so lag now. it doesn't allow me to upload pictures. tmr i guess. im too lazy to wait.

came back from GDOP - Global day of prayer at the national stadium.
I'm really glad that i went. although i didnt want to go. and my prayer got answered. recently, i was just thinking bout some stuffs. what triggered these thoughts were from esther. something like, it is amazing how God answers our smallest prayer.

yes. God really answers our smallest prayer. from our view, to him, it seems like a prayer that is so small, so stupid. but God still makes the effort to answer them.
for example, last friday, i was carrying a lot of thing on hand, and i know getting down the bus will be a problem if someone sits beside me. so i told God, "keep this seat empty till i get down" although a woman sat beside me, she got down the stop before i was alighting. and amen to that!

and today i prayed that i'll see a breakthrough in my "don't-dare-to-pray-out-loud" prayer life. and amen! i did it. i knew God was speaking to me on the way to the stadium. the voice in me kept repeatedly sounding. the voice said, "you can do things that you think you can't but in actual fact you can. its not about courage, not about being bold, but its about trusting yourself, and believing God, relying on your holy spirit in you." AMEN!

there are a lot of wonderful works, God has done for me. God has blessed me. i wish one day, i'll be able to tell everyone my story. and let it be a living testimony. and many will accept Christ because of the story i've to tell (:

recently, i've been praying for a miracle. not smth i would tell you bout. unless that miracle comes or appear, then i might share. but right now, i desperately need that miracle in my life.



<------------you don't have to read this, this my prayer to God. ---------------------->



God, let me filled once more of your love. let all these dryness be gone. let me have a breakthrough in my spiritual walk with you, in my prayer life with you Lord. Lord, show me that miracle that i've been yearning and desire for. Lord as i pray, i'll wait patiently for your answer. Lord, my life may be topsy turvy. but let me continue to trust in you, to rely on you. Lord, guide me, leadth me. fill me with love, care and concern. Let me learn to be sensitive in the Spirit within me. that i may learn to hear your voice even clearer. that i may walk the right road. let me not live by the standards set by man. let me learn to live to your standards. Father, i pray that you'll not let me get bullied wherever i go. Grant me a heart of compassion, a heart of love, that i may go out and share Christ with who you want me to share. help me reach out to those who need a helping hand. Lord, help me set a good example at home, in school and in my workplace. Lord, let me be your tool to bring my family to salvation. Father, this is my prayer, my prayer from my heart Lord. I want to surrender myself, my life into your hands once more, let me experience revival and renewal in my life from today onwards. Father i thankyou once more for the good things you've done for me. In Jesus name i pray AMEN.


<-----------------end of prayer ------------------------------------>




Yep. after GDOP today, lots of thoughts been running through my mind. uncertainty. uselessness that i've experienced through the week. being a burden and trouble. and many other things. things that i really wish i could sit down and cry over. things that i wish cld just disappear from my life. but then again, i ask myself, i ask God, what is the purpose you've set for me?

i may be tired, may be dry. but i know God is our everlasting God. and that i can do everything through Him who gives me strength.
so press on (: thats what i've been hearing for so many days now.
cheers


this is a long post. but a meaningful one to me (:
loves.

welcome esther into my life.
man. the title sounded so corny. haha.
Esther was saying, "i was wondering last night, how i've just stepped into your life" haha i was grinning (:
because. its good to have someone like Esther in my life (:
haha. it was really funny. cause she started working at gelare, we went badminton & jogging too. (esther is bad at badminton..... hahaha) ok fine. me too. ):

then we spent lots of time together talking, having fun. i really thank God. i've been in Shalom for around 11 months already. and only after so long, then i managed to get to know esther more. and its really amazing, how God plans his timing. really.

haha. and so, ytd ina, esther and i played badminton. and we sorta played badly. haha. then esther said, "choose another sport next time" lol, anyway, we went to jog around. ok i jogged 2 rounds only. -.- hahhaa. mannn. i need to lose calories (:
then we went to gelare early. i was supposed to start work at 6pm, but they told me 7pm. anyway, bee ean made esther and i go around giving out $5 discount vouchers. it was really interesting. but anyway, that's called free labour !

lol. and i had fun at work, apart from the headache that was killing me. but i found out the headache was because of lack of food! i ate only one apple pie for dinner. and then later on, i asked andy to go buy me a double cheeseburger. after eating it, my headache vanished. (:
happy.

yeppp. so thats my day (:

hoho!
my brother's desktop pc is irritating me. the powerpoint is overloaded with plugs. it gets very irritating and there's this sound that keeps coming out from the plug area. its like sssssssssssssssss. lol. anyway, then smth seem to keep getting d/c from the pc. and theres the "deng deng" sound. so its really irritating. BLEAH.

anyway. im gonna play 2 hours of badminton later! and i want to go jogging as well. depending on Esther, whether she can make it and whether she has taken her typhoid as well. hmm. i went out with jeffrey yesterday, yes like finally. and amazingly. we went parkway. i knew ina was there already. haha. hey. its not on purpose i want to go meet ina can. -.- lol.
anyway, gave him the smiley face. (: as cute as him. hoho.

i went giant i saw this polar bear. i find it really cute. and i think i'll buy it one of this day. polar bears are cuttttteeeeee.
SEEEEE, my child-like character is reverting back. how annoying? bleahhh.


hmmm. june is nearing. and i can say that i dislike june because jeffrey will be so busy! that is not fair. oh God, pleaseeeeeeee send people to accompany me during june! amen. hahaha. -.-
and.... TERMTEST! bleah. 4th, 5th & 7th JUNE. i better study very very hard (: and my group's mp seem to be proceeding well on track (: loves !


i met hannah already! she thought jasmine was me?!?!?! RAWR. like no way? haha. and i plan to give her one smiley face too. and ina's eeyore. and then perline's smiley face. but then, i got nth to give yemin le?! hahaha. oops.

ok. i blogged really long. ina are you happy? hahaa.
btw, i love jeffrey (:


BYEEEEE

going to school in 7 mins.
so dumb.

i'm kinda bored. i know there's work to be done. but somehow i don't have the motivation. i worked best at night. but because of that, i've not enough sleep. and i've a few pimples on my face already. ARGH. so retardedly sad.

bleah. im going to work later. packed food to work! wheee. this is to save money. haha.
thurs im meeting annete&emily. but causeway point? that's pretty farrrr.
arghs.

ok. im going off now. off to school. boring ):

loves

when all things seem difficult, somehow you know in your heart that of course you'll be able to overcome them. that's the works of the holy spirit in me.

I've been thrown in a world of worries and troubles eversince year 3.1 started. it has been really tough from week 0 till now. i've been appointed as a leader for my MP, marketing, ecsa & wsad. that is 4 modules. It is really hard to lead one group whats more 4. but i know God is working in my life.

Today i completed some work. and im actually feeling glad. im also glad i had a nice conversation with Esther. nice as in, a completely fun conversation. haha. im beginning to really like Esther. haha. thank God (:

okay. so i haven't blogged for very long. really sorry. i've been busy. skipping lessons to do projects. how dumb right? but oh well. i told myself, told God, i'll not skip anymore lessons from monday which is now onwards. im gonna strive and do my best. its not too late yet! (:
yeppp.

pay day is coming real soon. but its not sufficient. but i believe God will provide.
haha. im planning smth in secret. so i shall not tell you what it is.
anyway. its really late.
shen rae and esther said you can't sleep after 2am, you'll grow fat! hahaa
so byebye! and mind you its not even 1am yet. but im exhausted. been sitting here for 2 and a half hours doing nth but paperwork. lol

loves.

i think i look extremely funny and weird in this picture. but the thing is look at the hair. not the face. xD
i kind of love this picture. kope it from ina's blog. haha. we went out for sushi. my treat (: and she shared stuff with me that i would never have known.
and i know Ina is really God-sent.

i've never knew the meaning of friendship, true, everlasting friendship, till i know ina, and came BBTC. i never knew actually she was given a choice. and she chose to stay by me even though she could leave. so thankyou my dearest friend. (:

yeah. after reading her blog, i sort of wanted to tear. so touched.
haha.

anyway i had a romantic date just now. haha.
i really love just sitting down with you like just now. haha. i love you. and thanks for the wonderful night (:
although we don't get to have dates every now and then. but every single date is precious.
i can remember all our dates you know.

hmm. first date at cathay&funan IT mall, 2nd date still at cathay(how many times we went cathay ?!) my birthday; movie at cathay (AGAIN?!) then sushi. haha. then a few was at TM, walking around, or CARTEL. hmmm. and today. hahaa. i love you. and our one month one time date. i've never fell in love that deeply before. its all because of you, polar. (: and im blessed with the 2 most important person in my life. you and ina.

im having a very sweet night tonight. so im going to bed with smiles all over my face. hahha. (:

i haven't blogged for ages.
hmm. the whole week has been down and up i think. but i guess it all turn well, by God's grace.
i can only remember what happened from thursday onwards.

so thursday, i had my ecsa presentation. chinlock said my team did well. which i was happy to hear. but then i fell asleep during the rest of the presentation, because i was so tired. the previous night before i was working, and when i reached home, i was busily doing the powerpoint slides. and it seem that shaw wen has been telling chinlock bout me in class. sigh. that's really upsetting. yah. i know to chin lock, i may seem to have change from really guai to a worse kid. but hey, that's not true you know. im still the same. very eager to learn. hmm. nvm. action really speaks louder than words. bleah.

so that's my bad thursday. so fri, nth major happened. i stayed at home the whole afternoon. then went to work. hmm. work is always fun. but a lil tiring. but it gets better and better (:

saturday. choir practice. whoohoo! i finally went back for choir. i was really desperate for worship. that's why i smsed dorcas to ask whether i could sing for that one week. really glad. such a refreshment for me. i feel renewed in spirit once more. yeppp. then i went to cut my hair with dorcas. she brought me to this salon at bedok owned by 2 malay girls. i cut my hair short. so scroll down to see. yahh. i kind of miss my long hair so much. but sigh. no choice la hor. lol.

then sunday. the worse day ever. everything just didn't seem to go well. i really wanted to bang my head against the wall but considered it was not worth it. but God's presence was there with me through the most difficult time. i experienced some sort of peace, so i went to bed. yepp.

so that's my week. this few days im working on my prototype for MP. its tiring. but kinda fun. i always love website designing. so i guess im fine with it.
ponning school tmr. cus i got quite some work to be done. and i really want to complete them tmr before i go out dating . hahaha. loveloves.


ignore my face. just see the hair la. i think i look ridiculous. hahahaa. -.- so i really dislike my short hair. miss my wavy long hair. SIGH.



i miss jeffrey aw cher wah. (:



nights.

suddenly, i reached a dead-end. i don't know whether i have the energy to climb the wall infront, or should i turn back. but if im turning back, is there a turn-back for me still?


i've felt utterly lonely in my this few weeks of poly. the major project stress is killing me. im not able to communicate well with my members. and its leading me to destruction. and i'm seperated from my friends. i go to work every mon,wed, fri. and i can't find anyone to go out with. partly because im busy or they are busy.

tell me what i should do. many many times a day. i tell God, its okay. i can rely on you. and i'll rely on you. my friends may not be with me. but you are my best friend. so i'll trust in you.
but these are all head knowledge that i've never applied using my heart. at the end of the day, i feel worse than ever.

i know God will help me through. i really trust in Him that he'll see me through. but right now, i just need a lil concern that is hard to get, because i can't share what is inside me. i can't share because everyone's busy. my heart's breaking. really.

who can be here with me right now? i need someone.



on the happier note/not so happy note, i cut my hair short . so yah.
i think i should rest soon. im going crazy soon.
tmr there's choir. that's prolly the only thing im looking forward to.


nights

blog blog blog.
im so siannnn. i miss polar very very much. haha. 2 days w/o him you know. okay fine. only 2 days u wld say... but its so longggg. haha.
nvm.

tmr is supposed to be no-lesson day. but i got MP to do. i tell you. im so sian. and so reluctant to go school but oh well. i must go. hurr.
tmr im working till quite late. SIGH. but shud be fun i hope.

ok. im gonna go do highquest now. byeeee (:

loves

i had an amazing day of sleep today.
was really tired from work. school so i decided to pon school. and sleep in. and i tell you, it was really a rest i needed. if anyone of you need rest, i suggest you go sleep in for one whole day. and then when you start doing work. you can go a longer way. SERIOUS.

haha. so i woke up at 2pm. and deciding not to touch any school work, i ate lunch, and played sims 2. haha. i played till 5pm. then realized i was "kinda" running late. so i quickly went to bathe and headed for church. had dinner with polar, then had meeting.
i think camp games are really interesting. im even more amazed at how Darren can think bout all this kind of strategy games so easily. maybe its because he watch plenty of movies to get inspiration. but, still?! haha. im AMAZED!

i did my highquest today. praise the Lord. i finally did! haha. i said i MUST do all 5 days and yes i'll DO all 5 days ! (: and did my wsad tutorial. im tired now. :x
the day passed so fast. tmr's another long day. because i'll be in school and mp lab. doing projects. then i'll go work (: WHEES.

did i mentioned i spent my pay already? well it was only 37 bucks lah. -.- so its kinda expected. haha. but nvm. God do provide.
and HAPPY BIRTHDAY AARON! you're 21, and you went MIA.
hahaha. i guess he had a very romantic time alone (:




yes. i need to go out with ina one whole day soon. AS IN REALLY ONE WHOLE DAY, my dearest friend. hahaha. i miss you!
ok. i miss my boy too. we've always been so busy for a proper proper romantic date without feeling exhausted. but still i love you a lot. i wish all these busy-ness can end soon. and we can just be with each other for long periods. but its a long way to go. but being busy, keeps our mind away from each other. hahaha (: so maybe its good! i love you boy. rest well!


im feeling exhausted now. hahaha. gotta go (:
loves.

MY NEW LOVE.



hahaha. i've got a new love. BEARS.
i think polar bears are the cutest animals. cause they are like so huggable. and i wished i had a polar for a pet which is quite impossible.

after putting away the "childish" side of me for very long; telling myself i've grown up. i've finally revert back to my "childish" side thanks to darling. lol. because he gave me a teddy bear that's so cute and i can't stop holding it. ER. to explain how in love i am with the teddy...... I bring it out wherever i go, and when im doing my work, its beside me, when i sleep its with me. so that explains it all HUH?!

lol. today highquest was fruitful but i didn't do all 5 days. i am upset with myself actually. i shall make it a point to complete the next session for the next next highquest session! i MUST!
okay. i had a very challenging week. i shan't say anything here. but obviously close friends know. SIGH. school is dreadful ):
bleahhh. nvm. i'll graduate soon! i must score well this semester ! i believe i can.

anyway. i think i better do my work now. hahha.
LOVELOVES

it is really difficult to manage so many things at one time. sometimes i really wonder how i every managed. it always seem so difficult. but i always am able to come out of all these.

Im sure this semester i'll be able to do so again.
Although im really exhausted and can't find the strength to do things properly. sigh. may God bless me so much more.


okay. worries aside. its raining now. and im going school soon. NOOO. im not gonna bring my umbrella today. its killing me. yesterday was really a junk day. i carried so much stuff with me. until i had difficult having a free-hand to grab on the bar when the bus was moving. luckily, God gave me a seat after struggling for quite a while. Phew~
okay. so ina's mp is also facing problem. Hi^5 . welcome to the mp world of troubles.
work hard.
oh yah. i can't meet ina today anymore because of MP. im sacrificing too much for MP. and my grades.


i really think i've reached the extreme already. someone please save me , before i break down soon. loveloves
prayers for me please (:

Exhaustion.

after being sick for 2 days, rested for 2 days. im back to the hectic and chaotic school project days. bleah.

is there a day w/o mp to do? haha. this friday, there's like a project plan submission. and i didn't know till today. im such a failure at being a grp leader. sigh. better be more watchful in future (:
good news; benson wants to really work with my grp. bad news; he haven't send us the proposal.

tmr i gotta pull myself out of bed and do my work from 7am - 11am. then get ready for school. sigh. i can't continue now. because im tired. actually i wasted time watching tv just now. but hey! i needed some rest you know. i have been working hard in school from 9am - 6pm.
tell me bout it. haha.

yay. dinner with ina tmr! its been long since i see her.
and i have a long break away from polar. its a good thing though. hahaha. i don't tell you why. -.- so lame arh.
hopefully, sat can spend a day out with annette&emily. i need to spend time with them really soon. miss them (: hahaha.

okay. im gonna go sleep now. rest well. (:
loveloves.

sick but well again (:

i fell sick last night. -.- that's the consequences for not eating proper meals. but seriously how does gastric leads to high fever? i've no idea. but thank God, im alive and kicking again. haha.

i missed the YAM event. heard from others that it was fun. i really wanted to go. SIGH. but i was sick! an excuse to not go work. but i cldn't go for YAM too. i was so lethargic. cldn't get up. i slept from last night 11pm till 10am. then i went back to sleep all the way till 1pm. while waiting for polar to come fetch me at 2+, which he only came at 4+, i fell asleep too.

i was so tired. but im well. just completed my WSAD tutorial sheet. bleah. was really long. -.- but having a sense of satisfaction outta it.
tmr i've to chiong for my major project. i really have to trust God, and rely on him for a miracle that my group really need.
so friends, pray for me (:

ok. enough of blogging. i need to meet annette&emily soon. i need to have a whole day out with ina soon. and i think i want to see the GC people again. but saturday, im booked. sorry guys (:
loves.

FRI im working. come visit me if you can. (:
loveloves.