Birthday pictures (:

LOTS OF PICTURES (:

the love birds (:

(top) at cinema; waiting for stardust to start (:
(top) at Sakae (:

PROPOSAL TIME ...

agreement of love.
(: happy.
& i'm still smiling (:

BIRTHDAY PARTY AT MARINA SOUTH BBQ (:

he & me (:
left to right: ina, rachel, liting, me
left to right: weishan, ina, me, chien sing, sean
left to right: weishan, yemin, chiensing, sean, ina, me.

left to right: beng, me, ying
left to right: beng, me, ying
jeff's family : nana, jeff, me, joyce, his mom & dad.
US!
choir members: joy, joel, joanne me.

cutting the cake.
still smiling (:
group photo (:

SHALOM (:

chin, esther, ina, jeff, me, rachel, cl, yung, evelyn, liting

lovely cake (:

singing happy birthday
blow the candles (:
me - the happy birthday girl; so blessed

Minnie mouse (: chosen by love.

he said, "because you are as pretty as minnie mouse"

loveeee (:



OK. that's all.

blessed birthday (:

a shocking article

http://today.msnbc.msn.com/id/21882976/

i read this article.
its about a girl of age 13 who hanged herself because of a hoax in mySpace.

she fell out with her previous girlfriend, and this previous girlfriend's mom decided to create a fake account in mySpace using the name Jake. and she made this girl, Megan believed that Jake liked her. Until much later, Jake suddenly told Megan that He didn't want to be her friend anymore because he had heard stories that Megan wasn't nice to her friends.
He started being vulgar online, sending rude messages to Megan telling her things that you are fat, you are a slut etc.
and Megan was so upset.
the best part? her mom did monitor all her internet chatting. Megan was only allowed to access MySpace when her mom's in the room.

as i read this article further, it said that the parents who created the fictional character Jake, was not even apologetic. they said they didn't need to feel guilty and they may be partly responsible but they don't really care.

i was really burdened to pray this morning for this particular family.
the parents of Megan are in the midst of a divorce.
i pray that God just deal with the other family, and give Megan's family some justice.
and for poor Megan who took away her life, i only feel sorrow because she's not able to enjoy anymore, and she's probably taken captive in hell.



what a way to say good morning.

may God just bless each and everyone of you out there, with a blessed day ahead (:
Jesus loves you so much.

(:

monday blues ?

hmm.
anyway, i had a great saturday & sunday. which also means weekend -.-
DUH!

on sat, there was choir practice. and it was the most awkward practice.
because i wore my white mini-skirt. and i totally forgot bout standing on stage & everything!
so when dorcas told me not to wear such short skirt, i was really embarrassed ))))):
i really really forgot, i'm just too used to wearing skirt whenever i just go out, i guess.
but, Lesson Learnt, move on.

so after that i had lunch with jessica, stella, poh lin and sze yu.
had quite a lot of fun and laughter talking, joking (:
great time spent!

spent the night with baby at simpang bedok, its beginning to be our all-time favorite hangout location. (: great food, great company.


Sunday - choir (:
CHOIR was really good in the 2nd service. but of course still good, in the 1st service (:
i was so touched by God's love, that i just kept crying when i sang those few songs during first service. imagine being up on stage, and tears just keep flowing. its really bad but good in another way. hmmm. but i really held back my tears. and i secretly told God, "i will be a better child of God."
2nd service worship was a joyful one this time round. because i was filled with the joy of knowing that God just loves me simply so much, more than i could ever deserve.
and really, thankyou Father for all you've done.

for you live, and you died,
and you rose again on high.
you overcame the grave,
to save me from my sins.

so it was truely so amazing.
had lunch with Shalom (:
and waited for dear at the office. didn't wait too long though
i feel kind of blissful waiting for him. i don't know why.

and dinner at lerkthai with his family.
cute lil joyce drinking a lot of water because it was way way too spicy for her.
poor thing.
but i really enjoy fellowship with his family.


and now,
the fact that there's only 3 weeks before he's heading in to camp,
makes me really scared.
scared because i've no confidence in myself, that i'll always remain strong.
but love can overcome all!

& Perfect love drives out fear.
remember that, all you lovebirds out there (:
be brave, bold & courageous in loving.
& lastly, God loves all of us (:

AMEN(:

a lil update & some photos (:

remember i said i wanted to post photos of the zoo that i went around 6 weeks ago?



haha.







i'll just dish out a few (:

there is a white tiger (:

i like the brightness (: couple love.

of course, this is my favorite animal. Polar rocks!

and i found ina's family (:

there is a bird hiding behind the tree :x

hahaha. nice cozy hut (:

i believe this is Jeff's cousin (: the lion so nua. he don't want to pose for photo!

and a nice pair of love parrots (:

i miss the zoo so much.
i miss laughing so much & just simply enjoying ourselves - just the two of us.

& right now, while you're so busy and i'm sitting at home facing this laptop all alone, i feel so emo. ):
qiqi is feeling really weird this few days. i don't know how to explain or describe this feeling.

anyway, i worked on a small lil project for a whole 1 hour +.
and by working on this small project, its very heart warming. i won't be saying what is it about (: when the time is ripe, you shall know (: hee.

<------random thoughts starting from here ----->

its true that i've to admit that i'm helpless and recognize the fact that God is the only one who can help me.
but many a times, i just struggle on my own without realizing.
it took me quite awhile to realized, i'm still on my healing journey & i haven't recovered yet even though i thought i did.

and Jesus, i'm telling you, its really aching so much. & i suddenly don't know where to turn to.
the world seem so weird. everyone seem so distant. christians or non-christians. we are still your children. but, sigh, i don't know. i don't seem to be able to describe this feeling.
you know, many times, in the lonesome night, i feel like something is amiss from life.
and sometimes, i find myself denying that i'm not alright. because i always felt that, as a christian, you should show pple that you have a really blessed life. and people keep telling me that, leaving me no space to breathe.
sometimes, i wish i could just live in my own world and not recognize that i need others in my life.

i have to be strong, i have to protect myself from all the hurts.
but the more i try to, the more pain it gets.
so Lord, i'm telling you that i cannot do this alone. and i really really need you by my side.
there was a period of time, when i felt that you've forsaken me. but i know you've not, and you'll really be by my side always and always.
i need you so much.

life is really hard. really really hard.
and filled with people that i cannot understand & people that cannot understand me.
i'm often distressed over how insignificant i am, how useless i am, how hopeless i am.
i just wonder where is my worth.
what is my worth, am i just nothing or do i mean something to people, to God.

and this is a really sad post, because as i'm typing, my heart aches.
& i think i need to seek God instead.

bye.

off to seek God (:

(:

finally i'm smiling.
when i thought i wouldn't be able to smile anymore.

yesterday, i left office around 11am.
because i was very tired & uncomfortable.
hmm, i didn't take any MC though ):

anyway,
today morning was really a very happy morning. i meant the part when i reached city hall mrt station.
i was praying that it really wouldn't rain because i didn't have an umbrella with me. & there's no shelter from the MRT to my office!
but to my dismay it was raining heavily.

so i stood there praying God will sent me someone to share their umbrella with me. (actually i was thinking it's impossible because Singaporeans are so..... you know)
anyway, as soon as i finish praying. a guy told me his crossing the road & whether i would like to share an umbrella. i politely rejected but thank him because i wasn't gonna cross the road. haha.
and then immediately another caucasian guy asked me whether i would like to share an umbrella with him, he's heading to Adelphi. and my office is next to Adelphi!
hahaha. so it was really funny.
& i shared the umbrella.
we were practically running there. and he almost slipped and fell 2 times.
he's really funny.

but anyway after saying my thanks. i felt so joyful. i was thanking God for providing.
haha (:

so to me, it is really amazing. no one ever offered to share umbrella with me before CAN!
haha.

(:
yesterday i slept for 5 whole hours in the afternoon. a sleep that i really needed to sleep away all my worries. & it was really good (:


so i guess i'm glad now.
loveeees (:

the eventful week.

hahaha.
so lame. what a title.

i still haven't got over the whole thing.
people have been asking and asking and asking!

i'm engaged. its not a wedding proposal. it is just a engagement. lol.
and i'm not getting married so soon yet. maybe in 3 years? so, no more asking please. -.-
so stressful to face all the questions ):

ok. so the truth is out there.
hur.
i felt like, its time to grow up.
weird.

somehow, i'm quite blissful yet stressed-out at the same time.
but i know God is calling me to trust him and rely on him. He'll work things out.
so i shall just rest in God and allow Him to bring me through.

i'm so blessed.
at work now.

blog other days(:
love.


p.s thanks baby for everything (:

blessed birthday

i'm finally back to blog.
after the four hectic days of celebration.
it was more than i could ever ask for.
& God is really awesome in this four days.

i met lynette on the 7th of nov. two days before my actual birthday.
she treated me dinner.
it was really fabulous having time to catch up with her. and all the nonsense thing to talk about.
(:

on the 8th of nov, i headed down to marina south (again) to celebrate my birthday.
haha. thank God for answering my prayers. good weather, sufficient seats.
haha. it was a blast.
thanks to all who came:
shalom: cl, yung, esther, rachel, evelyn, liting, samuel chin
choir: joy & joanne
my long time friends: beng & ying.
my TP friends: yemin, weishan, chien sing & sean
Jeff's family: mom & dad, juliana & joyce
other friends: JOEL -.- (hahahaha)
and of course, my bestie: INA CHIA XI YING
and my love, JEFFREY AW (:

thankyou so much for coming down.
thanks to Jeff's dad for paying for the dinner & all.
God has indeed blessed me with so much, when all i requested is for a small birthday celebration.

thanks cl for the shoes. thanks esther, evelyn, rachel for the cardigans. thanks jingying, sarah and beng for the cardigan too(: thanks Joy for the green blouse. thanks ina for the scheduler. thanks my dear for the wonderful cake! thanks yung for paying for the drinks! thanks nana & joyce for the necklace! thanks Sean for the bouquet of flowers. 19 of them! oh my, it cost a bomb! and thankyou yemin, weishan & perline for the topshop voucher. thankyou so much to all!
(did i leave out anyone?)

haha. so it was a really blessed day of event.

coming up next,
jeff's & qiqi's individual celebration date.

haha.
it was awesome. i prayed that i would fall sick and be able to get MC.
haha. so i took MC and got the day off!
it was like spending 28 bucks to buy a day out with Jeff, totally worthwhile (:

we headed to Marina Square to watch stardust. it was really a good show.
followed by lunch at Sakae. same as last year. hoho.
so after lunch, i was feeling really unwell & exhausted.
haha. so headed home to rest for awhile.
we spent some time committing our relationship to the Lord again.
it was really awesome during prayers. because God spoke to me. i could hear him speaking straight to me. i was so shaken by his presence. and tears were just running down my cheeks.
and for all the things He has spoken to me, i thank him.
and i was healed of my tireness and flu immediately. amen!

jeff drove me out to Jalan Kayu! and then Seletar camp. the place i wanted to always go eversince aaron & jeff brought me there! haha.
it was a great night. (: really.
i was very touched at one point of time. and all i could ever say, is thank you so much.
for all you have done for me, baby i thankyou (:
you mean a lot to me. & i believe God will show us his way & his will.
let us continue walking with the Lord. closely.
i'm amazed!


and for today!
i met dear in the morning to blade! a good exercise for the day. he dropped by my place for lunch, before heading home to prepare to go church.
& for me, i slept my afternoon through.
& headed to ate's place. they celebrated my birthday for me.
with home made food, and home made birthday cake (:
it was totally awesome!
thankyou all of you.
thankyou ate dorcas, ate izza, ate marlet, ate Macky, Poh Lin, ana, angie & everyone else whom i do not know the name.
hahaha. thankyou so much for organising this small party.
thankyou for the belt. and thankyou poh lin for the nice necklace.
i enjoyed myself a lot.
and thankyou JOY and JOANNE for your spirit with us. and for not inviting me for lunch.
hahaha. EVIL. -.-

& lastly, i want to thank God for giving me such an awesome time these 4 days.
i asked for a small party celebration, but God you gave me more (:
this is how touched i am, Lord.
i pray that everyone will be blessed (:


i love all of you. every single one of you.
thankyou for all the birthday sms wishes, the facebook birthday wishes.
& so much more!

sometimes, sometimes, sometimes

sometimes, all you gotta do is to open your mouth and say the things that you've kept for a thousand years in your heart.



there are many times, i have so much to say but i just keep quiet.

because i know that out of the many things i would really want to say, 99% of them will come out strong and harsh and of course it'll hurt.

but if i keep that 99% in me, i realized that the damage caused, its more than a 100% damage internal.



so many times, i've seen myself falling & falling.

& i ask God, why do you allow this to happen?

and then i understand that, it doesn't mean that even when you're close to God, bad things doesn't happen. bad things happen to make you stronger.

but didn't i know that fact long time ago? however, head knowledge will always remain as head knowledge if you do not know how to turn them into heart application.





my heart has been crushed several times. broken several times by the precious people around me. but nevertheless, i still thank God for every single circumstances that he had placed me in. irregardless of whether it is good or bad. i thank God. because through all these life lessons, then would i allow him to discipline me further and then would i grow strong & seek him even more than before. so in a way, God is really awesome! experience Him for yourself, my non-christian friends. (:





and birthday dinner is just a 2 days away!

whoohooo.

just want to remind my dear friends who are coming, that its a go-dutch party, which means, you've to empty your wallets. i'm pretty sorry about it though.

haha. but pity me. (:

but when i see my guest list growing larger & larger, i feel so blessed!

blessed that i have so many nice, close friends who are willing to come down and celebrate this special day.



on sunday, before dinner for cbtl, all the nov babies were specially prayed for.

& that was when my heart was just pouring out for God.

telling Him how much i thankyou for everything & how bless i really am.



so no more words bout where's my worth.

no more words saying i'm a failure, or i'm useless.

because my hope is in the Lord.

and suddenly i remember what elder Jeffrey Goh said, "i'm not a failure, i did not fail. i was just experimenting" hahaha. that's so hilarious.

ok. so i'm all hyped up.



& facebook has been accompanying me through the boring attachment especially when i've no work to do OR my supervisor is BUSY.

haha.



God, would you just bless my day ahead & all of my friends and sisters/brothers in Christ as well (:

i love you, Jesus.

so so much ((:





loves.

Come Bless The Lord

* for my birthday wishlist, please scroll down to the entry on Nov 1st (:


Come Bless The Lord finally came to an end.
it was really a festive mood of celebration in rememberance of the Lord's goodness and Love.
i was so-not-myself for God on that big huge stage yesterday.

i was just jumping, clapping, dancing, shouting out loud praises for my heavenly father.
& really praise God for the whole hyped up congregation. and when i saw how the congregation were just worshipping, jumping, singing, shouting, i felt so so blessed.
thank you father for always giving me this opportunity, 2nd time round for CBTL.
i've been really blessed.

CBTL came to an end.
through the last whole week, i've been crushed & crushed.
many times i just cry so badly and i ask God, how many times more must i return back to such a state. Lord, i love you. and when i'm in pain, when bad stuff starts haunting me, i know you'll take my hand and walk with me. you'll tell me to lean on you as you bring me through.
but many many times, i just keep telling you, telling myself "i can't do it, Lord. i can't. i'm hopeless. i don't know what to do. i don't think i can do it. i just want to give up."
but i thankyou Lord, that even when i want to give up so badly then ever, you'll never let go of me.
and its been so amazing. through tears & joy, you've always stood with me, holding me up.
thankyou jesus. thankyou so much.

until now, there's a tinge of sadness lingering around in my heart.
when i think about it, i want to cry.
when i hear smth bad, i tell God i think i should give up.
when i'm alone, i want to cry so badly.
but then, the Lord tells me to move on.
and i shouldn't dwell in the sadness anymore.
so Lord, help me stay strong. bless me.
and remove all this negativity in me.
i commit it all into your mighty hands.

thank you for loving me so much.
let me know my worth in you today, oh Lord.


as i was ranting this morning to Lord, how i can't find my worth in anything.
i decided not to do nehemiah devotional today and do highquest. so when i flipped to my highquest verses, i saw the last session " IN CHRIST, I AM SIGNIFICANT" and i'm sure expecting God to speak to me through the last session.
so, God's timing is forever so perfect.

loves.

happy 21st anniversary, BBTC (:

whoohooo!
its BBTC's 21st Anniversary.

i'm supposed to reach church in 24 minutes.
and i've exactly 7 mins to blog, while waiting for my dearest to come trottling (?) in his bike to fetch me.

haha.
we are wearing the red bbtc polo t-shirt today (:
and i think its gonna be really awesome. with a number of more than 1000 people gathered in the new sanctuary to worship and praise God.
plus the Come Bless The Lord choir later that we-singers have been preparing over the last 1 month +.

and God, i pray you just anoint our voices, anoint the musician's fingers and leg. and just bless us with strength & energy.
and let your presence fill the whole sanctuary. lead us into a great worship with you.
bless the people, the congregation.
amen!


i love you, jesus.

my wishlist for this year (:

(i know i know. its only my 19th birthday, why am i making such a big fuss out of it?)
because
because
because....

i like it what. cannot meh!?

hahaha.
so my wishlist.
not according to priority (:



1) my parents will remember my birthday next year & celebrate it for me instead (i don't think you all can fulfill this. hehe)

2) a nice looking watch because i don't have 1.
you can get the stamp watch from heeren that i'm eyeing for, or if a most expensive one, i would love a fossil or levi's watch (:

3) nice t-shirts/blouse (i can wear size S or M. up to you to decide)

4) a new sweater/cardigan ( i need a new one badly)

5) necklaces/earrings (i don't mind hand-make ones)

6) shoes or heels (: especially that pair from bata northstar canvas. its brown with yellow linings.
7) a new wallet.

8) bagg! handbag, bag. whatever (:

9) gift vouchers.

10) a puppy. chihuahua, jack russel, sausage dog, snouzle (:
(hahaha, i think no one will get this for me. a pity. sigh)


hoho.

for me, i appreciate realistic presents nowadays.
because most of the things mentioned above, is not within my own means to get at all.
):
so my dearest friends, cell leaders (refering to CL & yung, of course), ate, mommies, please do me a favor. since you all love me (:


hahaha.
have a blessed week (:
God loves you all !

counting down: 8 days more to my 19th birthday (:

i'm back to blog!
(though i just blogged a few days ago)

i'm at work nua-ing now.
because i find it so hard to concentrate and do what i'm supposed to do!
sigh.

birthday is coming. & i feel like. huh! so fast, i want to continue being eighteen.
haha. weird huh.
spent the last 1/2 an hour thinking bout jeff's birthday instead.
how to plan, what to do.
and been searching for ideas on the internet. but nothing special.
being me, i always like very special & unique things.
so i guess i gotta crack my head a lil.
haha.


i'm so sleepy now. think i'm gonna sleep during my lunch hours
i'm feeling very fat recently.
so today after work i shall straight away head for home.
change to my exercising outfit, do my warm ups and go for a long jog!
i need to shed off the extra oil in me.
so frustrating & annoying to feel FAT!
):


cbtl is just a few days away. (:
i'm glad.

haha.
loves.

contentment leads to feeling blessed (:

i think the most important factor to have in order to feel really blessed irregardless of what, is Contentment.



to be content with whatever you have, be it money, family, relationship, career or any other thing, then you'll feel blessed.

after contentment, comes no comparision.

you cannot compare yourself to any other people.

because once you start comparing, you can never stop comparing and it'll only make yourself feel more lousy.



i admit i haven't been placing the latter factor in my life.

i've been always comparing. always envying the people around me.

why is it they can have this, they can have that without doing anything at all! but yet, i slog my way out so much, yet i do not have any of these blessings that they had received.



& when evelyn shared during cellgroup, in my heart i was thinking, oh man. i feel like the one who have not received much blessings at all!



but then, i rebuked myself. because i know its not true at all.

i may not have a perfect family(though i know nothing is perfect except God), i may not had the perfect environment with loving parents to grow up in, i may not have perfect grades, i may not have the bestest friends around. but i'm so blessed!



because for the fact i can live till this day and smile, it means God has still been blessing me.

if God had not blessed me, i would be dead and somewhere in hell i guess.

so i give thanks!



recently, i have drifted apart from many people including ina.

i still do not know what value do i have to two of these many people.

& i've been feeling really sore about it.

and i can only entrust it all to God.

if its' because i always go to church, if its' because i'm always busy with activities in church that i can't meet up with my friends, i rather it stay that way.

because if it's all for God, its' all worthwhile.



Lord, help me please.

i'm struggling with this issue.

because i love them as my friends.

but it hurts.

it hurts to be just forgotten, neglected.

as if i never meant anything.

i commit all these hurts to you.

amen.



i led worship in cg for the first time on Sunday.

and i made PLENTY of mistakes.

i was so embarassed.

i felt so lousy. and still feel lousy

bleah.





i'm finishing work in an exact 59 minutes.

and i'm jumping for joy.

time passed fast with all the loads of work dumped on me

hahaa.

LOVES





meeting polar later.

wheees. 7 days in a row.

i have never met him for 7 days in a row

see? i'm BLESSED (:

Serving

1 Peter 4:10

Each one should use whatever gift he has received to serve others, faithfully administering God's grace in its various forms.



this verse was shown to me by God plenty of times through the span of two weeks.

it has been haunting me again & again.

the decision to serve in YC media team.

the decision to commit myself 2 times a month for choir.

the decision of community youth cg.



hmm.

i don't know what the Lord is trying to tell me.

but i pray He'll reveal his purpose to me as i seek him.



i can practically shout in my head, and tell God, Yes Father, i know i know! i must serve according to my gifts.

and when this verse comes out again and again.

i have this feeling that i don't have the gift of singing. so i shouldn't be in choir!

):





what's wrong qiqi ?





BLEAH.





-back to work-

attachment :\

i haven't blogged for so so long.
have been busy with plenty of things!
like.. Erh, attachment? haha.

my week is passing like a rocket.
time just flieeees.
& i've been playing with facebook so much.
that choon meng ask me whether i'm on facebook 24/7
haha. that was so so funny!
like seriously.

ok, so how's attachment?
haha.
hmm.
on the first day i slacked.
on the second day i slacked somemore.
on the third day?
hahaaa. DOCUMENTATION!!!
from 8.30am - 5pm
whoa.
it was a torture to do documentation on this part of the web application.
i had to read the coding & understand!
and document all the sequence in words!
then finally at 5pm,
i was briefed about my next new project.
building a web app from scratch.
and i was given 3 thick books to read.
my supervisor say in 1 month (till now, i'm not whether he's joking yet. )
boohoo.

ok. so today i'll study the book 1. on Microsoft InfoPath (i've never heard of this software at all)
seriously.

i'm quite joyful this two weeks. maybe the word of God is really creating joy in me.
haha.
ok. i said enough about attachment already (:


oh in case u didn't know where i'm working at, i'm working at Singapore Academy of Law at Supreme Court (:
sounds formal right?
but i wear superly casual here.
haha.


and last thing before i stop blogging,
i miss boyfriend very very much.
he's been so troubled recently, and i can only continue praying for him.
mister boyfriend, please smile (:


love everyone.

blessed week of joy

ohmy.
haven't updated for very very long. (ok. not very long)

haha.
monday, bf took leave.
he brought me to the zoo.
somewhere that i've been wanting to go for the past few years.
but no one ever really wanted to go with me.
& him being the 1st that is willing to go with me, i'm so touched, so blessed.

he picked me up on monday, & we headed to his mom's canteen.
i didn't know that we were going to the zoo yet.
he said its a surprise. haha.
so we ate at his mom's canteen.
then we headed towards hougang, then SLE.
then i had a fun time trying to figure out the possibilities SLE will lead us to.
and i figured out the zoo.
i'm SMART (:
haha.

anyway on the highway. he told me his bike exhaust pipe just spit out fire.
i was so so amazed.
i secretly thought that his tyre punctured when he stopped cause of the loud sound i heard.
hahhaa.
ok. i wished i saw the fire but i didn't.

so we reached the zoo (:
and i was really excited. really really excited.
haha. i was smiling like mad to myself on the way there.
although the weather was like about to rain.
but i still love it.

took plenty of photos. visited a lot of animals.
and it was really a fruitful trip.
i love the polar bear too. though he seemed so bored.
but oh well (:
haha. so i had a super duper fruitful trip. really really happy.

i want to upload photos. but i waiting for dear to pass me the pictures.
so prolly next week. i'm getting the hard disk on Sunday.

hmm.
so tuesday, i went back to school for SIP briefing.
i got my attachment already!

Singapore Academy of Law.
sound so formal right? haha.
but i know God will bless me there.

recently i've been praying for a non-christian friend as a partner for my attachment.
so that i'll have a chance to share the gospel. (:
so continue praying for me.

hmm.
wednesday, was a day that didn't started well, but ended off a lil well i guess.
went out with dear again.
went to catch a movie.
then went home eat dinner. & we had bible study together with his sisters.
i see his sister growing in christ. & i'm happy.
(:

like really joyful. haha.
anyway.
i'm going to meet Lynette later.
hope i can have a fruitful time later with her (:

blessed love everyone (:

an unexpected date

today, i received a few surprise SMSes from jeffrey.

haha.

him: Dear, morning! how are you feeling?

me: i'm feeling so much better that i can go out and play!

him: Power! where you wanna go?

me: i have nothing on today. meeting annette & emily in the evening.

him: Lets go Sentosa now?

me: HUH?

him: Hey, or u wan go other place?

me: I think to go pay phone bill.

him: At where? what time you ready?

i immediately dialled his number, not knowing that he's not at work. still rather blur.

then after talking on the phone, i realized he took leave to accompany me because he thought i was still sick! but he didn't expect me to be so energetic.

so i asked him to bring me out. i can't stand being at home anymore! hahaha.

so he came to fetch me, and we went out. hohoho!

went to his mom's canteen to have his lunch.

then we headed to penisular plaza to buy skinnys/jeans.

i bought black skinnys for 20 bucks for choir.

and he bought jeans because he has to wear it for cbtl too. -.-

50 bucks altogether. cheap & really worth it!

haha. then we walked to Raffles city, then to citylink, marina square.

did a lil of shopping & a lot of chatting.

found my orange top for cbtl in Mango. really thank God. at an affordable price of 35 dollars.

i couldn't find an orange top for really long. & i was just randomly telling God, please provide an orange top! and then, i walk into Mango, i found plenty! haha. God is awesome!

really.

so after that, i treated him to Spageddies. its really good there.

haha. its my joy to treat my boyfriend. i hardly have any opportunity to do so.

and i know he enjoyed himself a lot too.

we haven't shopped before together despite being together for 13 whole months already.

& we seldom get to come out together like early in the morning till night that kind of thing.

but today we did!

haha. so today has been really really fantastic.

accompanied him to church. he had backup singing practice. i stayed in the office waiting for him until 10pm plus. but i never complained. it was all worthwhile!

and i chatted with lynette for awhile through msn.

really miss talking to her.

and i'm meeting her on thursday!

haha.

loveloves.

i'm meeting shalom later. & ina.

she's giving me a treat.

please pray i don't spend anymore.

i'm trying to save for an even more greater use.

God bless everyone.

lots of loves (:

Happy 13th Month on Monday. 8 Oct 2007

(outdated post)
happy 13 month, my love.

ended work early because i was sneezing away.
disliked the flu.
so i wanted to go home & rest, and ask jeffrey to come fetch me from home,
instead of going to church office to meet him.
but then when i was in the mrt train, i just somehow decided to go church instead of home.
so i alighted at bedok.
and i found myself slowly walking to church when i could take a bus instead.
my handphone batt was down. i couldn't contact him too.
but i decided to just go.

was really crazy.
because i don't know how i made the decision to alight at bedok.
haha. i was really amused at myself.

so i reached church office at 5pm i think.
he wasn't in. so i looked for jessica instead.
she prayed for me, then jeff came back.
haha.

so just read my story book while waiting for him.
anyway,
after he officially knocked off, we went to the hk cafe at east coast park again.
that was where we celebrated our 10th month too! (:
haha. really funny.

it started drizzling when we just turn out from marine parade area to east coast park.
hmmm. then as we reached, it got heavier ):
he was drenched.
i felt so sad with the rain. because he was wearing the shirt i just bought for him. & i didn't want him to fall sick wearing that wet piece of shirt in air-con.
so while he was washing up, i just said a short prayer.
and thank God, i know he's not ill.
but the thing is. i am. -.-

looking back, i'm asking myself now "why didn't i pray for myself too?"
so weird.
haha. -.-
but i'm really appreciating the time i have now to rest at home.
where i can really catch up on a lot of sleep.
and also, spending time with God.
(:

i will wait till he pass me the photos, then i'll upload it here.
but i really enjoyed myself.
although i wasn't feeling well at all.
but i just felt so protected.
and well cared for.
especially when he just gave me his raincoat to wear, on the way home, so that it would keep me warm. and i just appreciate it so so much.

one year & one month already.
everything seem to be progressing so fast that i haven't caught my breathe.
he's going in to army this dec 6.
but then the most amazing thing is, i thought i would be sad & everything, but things didn't turn out that way.
for our future sake, faster go in, faster come out. haha.
while i'll be taking my degree, he'll be in ns.
(: whoohoo.

& God has been so gracious to me. he gave me a total of 5 months + to spend with you. so that we can continue building our r/s. that when you go in, our love would be strong to withstand.
i'm so amazed at God's perfect timing always.
it just creates the joy in me.
the Lord is our everlasting God. (:
AMEN!

haha.
so joyful qiqi.
i'll get well soon, by God's grace (:


loves.

):

i have been sick for more than 10 days already.

& still counting.

pray that i'll be alright.

i have officially finish work.

last day of work supposed to be on thursday.

but because i can't recover.

i can't go back to work.

a total loss of $56 X 3 =$168

that's like a lot.

):

anyway today is payday also.

but not really sure whether the money is in yet.

i miss boyfriend alot.

especially when i'm all down. sick & all.

anyway the uploads of photos from Dorcas place.

the stew that ate dorcas made. really taste good (:

pebbles or chocolate, you decide.

christmas tree that we put up.
i thought it was really too early to put up christmas tree. but ate said, in philippines, they start putting up christmas tree in september.

i love that toy on top of the tree. i place it there.
i call it smiley and ate dorcas said she calls it chechi -.-
but anyway it has a good view from the top.

loves.

bored at work

there's nothing for me to do now at work.
the data entry people are in a meeting.
waiting for tasks to be passed down to me
but apparently no one has any tasks on hand for me to do.

so i blog.
today a few management people coming down to office.
they told me to be more alert. because i always seem to be dreaming.

happy 13th month, jeffrey. (:
i love you so much more.

had a good time yesterday at choir.
beginning to grasp the alto parts even better than before.
then dinner with jeff & his parents was even better.
appreciate it so much.

haha.
ok. better stop blogging.
though i've nothing to do. i shudn't do other stuff.

love

counting down; 6 days of work left.

i feel joyful today
haha.
did hq before i came out of the house.
i guess its always good to hear from God early in the morning!

i spent my night after work at ate Dorcas's place.
she whipped up a fantastic dinner.
we put up the christmas tree.
and we chatted alot.

jeff came to join us, followed by Joanne.
(:
lovely.

so i really enjoyed myself.
jeffrey finally understand why i always love Dorcas place.
the food is GOOD.
like really good.
took a few photos of the christmas tree and dinner of course.
but can't upload now.
i'm at work!

hope work ends fast today.
loves

exhausted at work.

i slept about 6 hours.
which isn't doing me any good.
because i'm still sick trying to recover.
but without rest.
boohoo.

at work now.
struggling to keep my eyes wide open.

yesterday i met up with Lynette after work.
had a good time chatting at coffee club.
though for one hour only.
but on Saturday, there's more to come.
been so long since we really catch up with each other.
& we've the whole Sat out together. (:

then headed home.
and dear called me out for a movie.
we went to see Liting with a few SHALOMs.
said happy birthday.

then headed to watch chuck & larry.
i can say it isn't my type of show at all.
but then, the company is the most important.
besides haven't really been out dating with jeffrey for so very long.
haha.

so i really enjoyed myself though i knew i had to sacrifice sleep.
this is what i call love.
haha.

tonight, i'm meeting up with ate Dorcas.
which is good. (:
i need to talk to someone.
& God loves everyone


p.s i'm still not feeling well. & i think its gonna take a while to recover. i'm left with 7 days of work. so pray that i'll make it through.
thankyou

another day of leave.

took another day of leave.
in order to really rest. but i'm more of watching tv.
not really sleeping resting.
hmm.
cancelled my meeting with sarah & jingying.
sad.

yesterday i had choir rehearsal for cbtl.
fun with all the parts.

there's one thing i've been struggling with for many many weeks.
i don't know how to describe that feeling.
sigh.
i think i might lose it. because of my annoyance & arrogance.
but 90% of my mind & heart tells me that i don't care.
i don't understand why i'm like that.

sigh.
forget it.
God deal with me please.